challenges and difficulties
Melanie has an innate distrust of groups and/or a cynical attitude toward society that may leave her feeling out of step and unable to participate in activities with her peers. Overcoming a sense of aloofness and alienation from others is an important task for Hill.
She is very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with her duty, her public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. Melanie Hill understands the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and she is capable of much self-discipline and patience once she sets her sights on a goal.
But Melanie Hill is very judgmental and hard on herself if she fails to attain success, and she can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world does not recognize her efforts.
The side of Melanie Hill that wants and needs structure, order, stability, and a disciplined way of life is at odds with her urges for unfettered freedom, change, excitement, and discovery. There is apt to be much discontent, inner stress, and tension as a result, and at times Melanie finds it hard to relax. Melanie Hill may act out in a rebellious way now and then, or clamp down hard on herself, in an attempt to strictly control her "wild" impulses. Hill's task is to try to find a reasonable balance between order and creative chaos in her life.
She is inclined to be somewhat timid and afraid to start something on her own, preferring that someone else tell her what to do. Melanie Hill can easily be deterred from pursuing her goals, which makes her advancement in life rather slow.
She is inclined to preserve and build up her heritage. Others are attracted to her, but at the same time Melanie Hill gives the impression of being unapproachable. Hill tends to hold back her feelings and is somewhat inhibited with others, especially in her love relationships.
Although Melanie Hill is generally happy, at times she could become somewhat inhibited and because of this, she may occasionally let good opportunities slip by. Although she is interested in people, Hill also tends to periodically seek seclusion.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Melanie Hill instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Melanie Hill needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Melanie Hill's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Hill's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Melanie Hill is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Melanie should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Melanie Hill can offer the world at large.
The arena she is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Melanie Hill should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials she feels she possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aquarius
Saturn in 10th house
Saturn Quincunx Uranus
Saturn Conjunct Sun/Jupiter
Saturn Conjunct Venus/Jupiter
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/MC
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 5th house