challenges and difficulties
Howard doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Ken is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
He may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Ken Howard does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Ken Howard must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Ken Howard instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Ken Howard needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Ken Howard's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Howard's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Ken Howard is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Ken should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Ken Howard can offer the world at large.
It is in his dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Ken Howard needs to integrate in tangible ways: how he makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what he does with the resources he has. Ken Howard should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The following are specific activities that will support Ken Howard in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Howard, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Ken Howard's path to wholeness involves confronting his dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming himself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Howard's willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Ken.
He may have the feeling that he constantly has to surrender to the wishes of other people and he gives the impression of having a passive or indifferent role in his relationships. Ken Howard never takes the initiative and depends on the support of groups he is affiliated with.
Ken Howard tends to be fascinated by new and obscure things and may be strongly attracted to the occult. He may contribute to the spontaneous forming of groups and may gain spiritual enlightenment together with others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 12th house
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/Neptune