challenges and difficulties
LaMarr both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know her intimately does not come easily to Barbara, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Barbara LaMarr is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for LaMarr.
Barbara LaMarr takes both her work and her health very seriously, but she may demand so much of herself at work that she compromises her health. Barbara can become a workaholic, not so much because she has lofty ambitions, but because she never feels like she has done enough. Barbara LaMarr is overly responsible or overly conscientious at work, so much so that she may not enjoy it at all.
LaMarr can also get overly involved in self-improvement or her health, and she tends to be a bit of a hypochondriac.
Barbara has an inner conflict between idealism, hope and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression due to limitations and practical realities. Barbara LaMarr needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve her aspirations. LaMarr will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Barbara LaMarr tends to be her own worst enemy, demanding inhuman perfection of herself and harshly criticizing or persecuting herself when she does not measure up. Perhaps circumstances or relationships in her life have been extremely difficult and demanding, reinforcing Barbara's belief that she must struggle alone.
She is capable of tremendous effort and of overcoming great odds and handicaps. Through these efforts Barbara LaMarr develops her power and inner strength. However, Barbara LaMarr should not make life harder than it is. She must give herself permission to let up sometimes, and to realize that she is only human.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Barbara LaMarr instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Barbara LaMarr needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Barbara LaMarr's path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how LaMarr's actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of LaMarr's life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support LaMarr's ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress she is likely to become overly focused on herself and her own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" LaMarr's focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Barbara LaMarr needs to strike a balance between doing for herself and doing for others, by discovering how LaMarr's unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in any involvements she has with teams, clubs, organizations, networks, and the like that Barbara LaMarr is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above need to be channeled into some sort of group effort or experience, or have some impact on society at large.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 6th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Quincunx Pluto
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 11th house