challenges and difficulties
Jinyan both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know her intimately does not come easily to Zeng, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Zeng Jinyan is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Jinyan.
She is very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with her duty, her public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. Zeng Jinyan understands the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and she is capable of much self-discipline and patience once she sets her sights on a goal.
But Zeng Jinyan is very judgmental and hard on herself if she fails to attain success, and she can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world does not recognize her efforts.
She is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Jinyan is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Zeng Jinyan is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate her innermost feelings and thoughts.
She is likely to find it hard to make decisions, looking forward to the future with great enthusiasm on the one hand, but afraid of misjudgments on the other. Never quite sure about anything, Zeng Jinyan may periodically withdraw from situations and people.
Zeng dislikes tense or frustrating situations and has a strong desire to free herself from them. Acting quickly at times, Zeng suddenly overcomes her inner inhibitions. Zeng Jinyan also has the ability to aptly grasp difficult situations and to use them for her advancement.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Zeng Jinyan instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Zeng Jinyan needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Zeng Jinyan needs to take what she has learned (either through formal education or her own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Zeng's quality of life or that of persons in her world, is of little real value. Putting Jinyan's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in her daily relationships, and in the multiple choices she makes every day, will enable Zeng Jinyan to really test her belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Zeng Jinyan is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Zeng Jinyan needs to cultivate her ability to live in the present!
It is in her work and her relationships with co-workers, employers, and employees that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Integrating the qualities described above into Jinyan's work and daily routine will lead to greater satisfaction, improved health, and personal growth.
Zeng Jinyan tends to be a bit too idealistic and may place too much hope in her relationships, resulting in frequent disappointments. Zeng could be attracted to naive people, but some of her contacts may also turn out to be swindlers.
Zeng Jinyan tends to be fascinated by new and obscure things and may be strongly attracted to the occult. She may contribute to the spontaneous forming of groups and may gain spiritual enlightenment together with others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 10th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Jupiter
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Uranus
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 6th house
N. Node Opposition Jupiter/Neptune
N. Node Opposition Uranus/Neptune