challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Hayward. Susan Hayward tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Susan.
Susan may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. She strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for her.
On another level entirely, Susan Hayward is very careful about joining forces, and especially her material resources, with others. Hayward wants to keep her own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
Susan Hayward takes her ideals and dreams very seriously and goes through periods of fervent dedication to a lofty ideal or vision. Susan has the ability to acquire true spiritual or imaginative insight, but she can also become so involved in her imaginative, idealistic pursuits that she looses perspective and develops feelings of alienation and isolation.
Her disposition is somewhat melancholic and Susan Hayward may have a rather pessimistic outlook. Susan has an inner need to be alone and to engage in deep meditation. Susan Hayward takes life seriously and may have been taught early on to learn from her mistakes.
Basically shy, Hayward tends to be somewhat inhibited in love relationships and may feel uncomfortable or awkward expressing her love for someone. Susan Hayward longs for love relationships and dreams about love, but is also inclined to torment herself because of a seeming lack of affection.
When she is with others, Susan Hayward may often suddenly become inhibited. She is inclined to be afraid of confrontations and probably will avoid group activities as much as possible.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Susan Hayward instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Susan Hayward needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Susan Hayward has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that she is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Susan Hayward needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, she has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, she may encourage others to depend on her emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Susan Hayward needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Susan Hayward needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Susan Hayward should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Susan Hayward back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Being excessively egocentric or proud, needing personal recognition and applause, wanting to be center stage all the time, needing to be important and special.
She is very social, loves artistic events and entertainment, and has the ability to show her feelings without reservation. Susan Hayward probably found joy in learning things early in life and she stays close to her family and other relations.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 8th house
Saturn Conjunct Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/MC
Saturn Conjunct Venus/Neptune
Saturn Opposition Uranus/N. Node
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Opposition Sun
N. Node Opposition Mercury/Venus