challenges and difficulties
Slash often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something he cannot name or specify, and he may sense both a great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or over sensitivity is an important task for Saul Hudson.
It may be difficult for Slash to play spontaneously or just let his hair down, for he tends to inhibit that side of his by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression he is making.
Slash may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for he wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged and recognized as special in some way. Though he may indeed be outstanding, Slash also needs to learn to relax and enjoy himself more.
Slash has an inner conflict between idealism, hope and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression due to limitations and practical realities. Slash needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve his aspirations. Saul Hudson will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Slash seesaws between playing it safe, and doing something unique and original, between self-control and letting loose, between being a responsible adult and a rebellious adolescent, between what Slash has to or should do and what his spontaneous impulses tell him to do. All of this creates enormous inner tension as well as friction with people in his environment. Slash may, for instance, bitterly resent government or authority figures who "crush his individuality", yet ignore his obligations and responsibilities, thus ensuring that they will pursue him. Learning to give each side its due is an ongoing challenge for Saul Hudson.
Slash feels that he must work very hard and struggle against tremendous odds that impede his chances of fulfilling his life's ambitions. Slash may adopt a very hard, cynical, or nihilistic attitude that will only drag him down further. There are major problems with his father or figures of authority. Slash may fail simply to spite "them", without realizing that he is primarily hurting himself. If he can overcome his feelings of loneliness, bitterness or isolation, and direct his energies toward constructive endeavors, Saul Hudson can be immensely effective because of his tremendous tenacity and potential for achievement.
Slash tends to be somewhat insecure and uncertain about his direction in life. Frequently plagued by doubt and fear, he is inclined to worry a lot. Because Saul Hudson lacks the confidence to fight back, he may allow himself to become the victim of others.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Slash instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Slash needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Slash needs to take what he has learned (either through formal education or his own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Slash's quality of life or that of persons in his world, is of little real value. Putting Saul Hudson's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in his daily relationships, and in the multiple choices he makes every day, will enable Slash to really test his belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Slash is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Slash needs to cultivate his ability to live in the present!
It is in fostering a personal vision or philosophy of life, whether through religious or philosophical studies, education or the wisdom of distant lands or cultures that Slash is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Slash needs to cultivate the qualities described above in this endeavor. Long distance communication and involvement with foreigners is likely to be significant to Saul Hudson.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 5th house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Opposition Uranus
Saturn Opposition Pluto
Saturn Opposition Neptune/MC
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 9th house