challenges and difficulties
Racquel has difficulty asserting her will and desires directly and openly. She may also suppress her anger and aggressiveness. Developing self-confidence, courage, and faith in herself are important tasks for Darrian.
Racquel Darrian takes her commitments to others very seriously, especially in close one-to-one relationships. Her strong sense of responsibility to the other person makes Darrian a trustworthy and dedicated partner, but she often feels that marriage or any binding commitment between her and another person is too restrictive and burdensome, and thus seeks to avoid it. Close relationships may be more work than pleasure for Racquel Darrian and it may seem that she is always "working on" her marriage rather than enjoying it. However, Darrian will persevere and ultimately grow through the process.
The side of Racquel Darrian that wants and needs structure, order, stability, and a disciplined way of life is at odds with her urges for unfettered freedom, change, excitement, and discovery. There is apt to be much discontent, inner stress, and tension due to this, and at times Racquel finds it hard to relax. Racquel Darrian may act out in a rebellious way now and then, or clamp down hard on herself, in an attempt to strictly control her "wild" impulses. Darrian's task is to try to find a reasonable balance between order and creative chaos in her life.
At times Racquel Darrian struggles with nebulous worries and insecurities, fears which may be difficult to name. Mostly, she may be afraid of getting acquainted with the inner workings of her mind and soul, feeling uneasy with anything irrational or intangible. Racquel Darrian has to work hard to overcome being overly serious regarding the spiritual side of life, especially if her religious upbringing emphasized guilt and retribution. Reorienting herself in the direction of spiritual optimism will do much to lift the cloud of worry that settles over Racquel occasionally.
She is somewhat pessimistic and prone to states of depression. Racquel Darrian may feel like withdrawing from everything and that she is not adequately equipped to handle her life. She may need someone else's point of view to balance her overly pessimistic outlook.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Racquel Darrian instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Racquel Darrian needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Seeking harmonious interpersonal relationships, cooperation, and togetherness, as well as the desire to please or appease other people, are drives that come very naturally to Racquel Darrian - so much so that she seeks them out at her own expense. When she is under stress, Darrian tends to look outside herself for approval or answers, and she leans on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look inwardly for answers and forge her own path through life is a key factor in her self-development.
Racquel Darrian is often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about her intentions or desires, and she can become enmeshed in a quagmire of "little white lies". Stark honesty - both inward and toward others - is the only way out! This, however, leads to the need to confront some of Darrian's most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if they do not like me?" and "what if I have to go through this alone?".
Racquel Darrian needs to cultivate her ability to be assertive, take initiative and act on her own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are imperative.
It is in her marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. She may see the qualities that she needs to develop more fully (described above) in her partner. It is important for Racquel Darrian to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in her life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them herself. Racquel Darrian has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about herself through others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aries
Saturn in 7th house
Saturn Quincunx Uranus
Saturn Quincunx Neptune
Saturn Opposition Uranus/Neptune
N. Node in Aries
N. Node in 7th house