challenges and difficulties
Paula Barbieri often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may have both: great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for Barbieri.
She may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Paula Barbieri does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Paula Barbieri must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Paula Barbieri seesaws between playing it safe, and doing something unique and original, between self-control and letting loose, between being a responsible adult and a rebellious adolescent, between what Paula has to or should do and what her spontaneous impulses tell her to do. All of this creates enormous inner tension as well as friction with people in her environment. Paula Barbieri may, for instance, bitterly resent government or authority figures who "crush her individuality", yet ignore her obligations and responsibilities, thus ensuring that they will pursue her. Learning to give each side its due is an ongoing challenge for Barbieri.
Paula Barbieri feels that she must work very hard and struggle against tremendous odds that impede her chances of fulfilling her life's ambitions. Paula may adopt a very hard, cynical, or nihilistic attitude that will only drag her down further. There are major problems with her father or figures of authority. Paula Barbieri may fail simply to spite "them", without realizing that she is primarily hurting herself. If she can overcome her feelings of loneliness, bitterness or isolation, and direct her energies toward constructive endeavors, Barbieri can be immensely effective because of her tremendous tenacity and potential for achievement.
Paula Barbieri has a tendency to be too critical of herself. She may be plagued by feelings of guilt about some past events, leading to further self-doubt. Paula must learn to handle her frustration, depression and discontentment and try to overcome her lack of self-confidence.
A bit stubborn and self-willed, Paula Barbieri persists no matter what obstacles she has to overcome. She has great endurance and strength and she forces herself to work very hard. Paula Barbieri could be somewhat one-sided in the pursuit of her objectives.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Paula Barbieri instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Paula Barbieri needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Paula Barbieri benefits by becoming more aware of the rhythm of the seasons and the natural world, learning to slow down and allow life to unfold in its own time. Nurturing a garden, a child, or some other living, growing thing gives Paula Barbieri a sense of inner balance.
Paula Barbieri has a tendency to be deeply suspicious, to not take anything at face value and to see hidden agendas and dark motives even where none exist! Life does not have to be a constant conflict... Paula needs to learn to accept things as they are.
Barbieri also needs to develop patience, peace and stability by grounding herself in her daily work and behaving consistently and reliably towards others.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Paula Barbieri between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Paula Barbieri seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Barbieri's task.
Paula Barbieri loves to show off the strength that she possesses and she has a strong desire to dominate others. Paula seems to have an exuberant craving for recognition and importance and a need to influence and lead large groups of people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Opposition Uranus
Saturn Opposition Pluto
Saturn Opposition Moon/Mars
Saturn Opposition Uranus/Pluto
N. Node in Taurus
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Opposition Sun/Pluto