Paul de Leeuw
challenges and difficulties
Paul has an innate distrust of groups and/or a cynical attitude toward society that may leave him feeling out of step and unable to participate in activities with his peers. Overcoming a sense of aloofness and alienation from others is an important task for de Leeuw.
Paul de Leeuw has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life that colors everything he does. Caution and realism are his virtues though Paul limits himself at times by being too careful, shy or fearful, not believing in himself enough, or lacking the required assertiveness. Others find Paul de Leeuw difficult to get to know intimately, as de Leeuw tends to distance himself from them or to outwardly adopt a rather stern, "adult" demeanor.
Paul de Leeuw strives and struggles a great deal with his ideals or spiritual aspirations. He may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or he may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, he can never quite divorce himself from his idealistic concerns.
Paul de Leeuw tends to be his own worst enemy, demanding inhuman perfection of himself and harshly criticizing or persecuting himself when he does not measure up. Perhaps circumstances or relationships in his life have been extremely difficult and demanding, reinforcing Paul's belief that he must struggle alone.
He is capable of tremendous effort and of overcoming great odds and handicaps. Through these efforts Paul de Leeuw develops his power and inner strength. However, Paul de Leeuw should not make life harder than it is. He must give himself permission to let up sometimes, and to realize that he is only human.
Paul de Leeuw tends to suppress his feelings and may be somewhat inhibited in love relationships. He may often feel rejected or he may give the impression of rejecting others himself. Perhaps his mother or father found it difficult to express their affection.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Paul de Leeuw instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Paul de Leeuw needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Paul de Leeuw's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though de Leeuw's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Paul de Leeuw is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Paul should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Paul de Leeuw can offer the world at large.
It is in relationships that are more than superficial or casual - in particular in cases where Paul de Leeuw has merged emotionally, legally, or financially with another person - that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. de Leeuw will see these issues arise in close partnerships of any kind, especially when there is a mutual dependency involved. Dealing with in-laws, inheritances, and legal matters involving joint custody, shared assets, and resources is also a part of this.
Paul de Leeuw has a very obliging manner and is always in search of new relationships. He is able to identify with people quite easily and probably will make many friends who can be of help to him.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aquarius
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Quincunx Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Venus
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 8th house
N. Node Opposition Sun/Asc.