Pamela Colman Smith
challenges and difficulties
Pamela Colman Smith often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may have both: great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for Smith.
She is very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with her duty, her public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. Pamela Colman Smith understands the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and she is capable of much self-discipline and patience once she sets her sights on a goal.
But Pamela Colman Smith is very judgmental and hard on herself if she fails to attain success, and she can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world does not recognize her efforts.
Pamela Colman Smith has a tendency to think on the dark side, is somewhat gloomy and touchy and easily disappointed. She may find it hard to keeps her attention on the real world and could become obsessed with strange ideas and fanciful beliefs.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Pamela Colman Smith instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Pamela Colman Smith needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Pamela Colman Smith's path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how Smith's actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of Smith's life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support Smith's ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress she is likely to become overly focused on herself and her own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" Smith's focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Pamela Colman Smith needs to strike a balance between doing for herself and doing for others, by discovering how Smith's unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in fostering a personal vision or philosophy of life, whether through religious or philosophical studies, education or the wisdom of distant lands or cultures that Pamela Colman Smith is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Pamela Colman Smith needs to cultivate the qualities described above in this endeavor. Long distance communication and involvement with foreigners is likely to be significant to Smith.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Pamela Colman Smith back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Going to extremes, willful rebelliousness and an instinctive anti-authoritarian attitude. Pamela Colman Smith seeks constant (and often purposeless) movement or change, involvement with unreliable people, and individual freedom at any cost.
The following are specific activities that will support Pamela Colman Smith in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Smith, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Pamela Colman Smith should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Pamela needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Smith's heart and bears the stamp of Smith's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Pamela Colman Smith to grow and become more whole herself.
She is likely to offer help and protection to people around her and encourage moral values. Pamela Colman Smith stands up for social justice and unselfishly works for the good of her community. Refusing any kind of personal advantages, Pamela lives in harmony with everyone.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 10th house
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Neptune
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 9th house
N. Node Opposition Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Sun
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Saturn