challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Cox. Nikki Cox tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Nikki.
She may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Nikki Cox does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Nikki Cox must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Around others Cox is somewhat humble and shy and prefer to be by herself. Nikki Cox tends to limit her relationships with others and associates only with like-minded people. She is inclined to be cool and reserved even toward those she loves.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Nikki Cox instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Nikki Cox needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively she is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Nikki stands alone when she does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Nikki Cox has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that she must be self-reliant and that only she can come up with the answers she needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate her from others, or make Nikki Cox feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Nikki Cox calls social "games" do not come naturally to her. Nikki Cox needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Nikki Cox needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Nikki Cox should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
Her nature is a bit restless and unpredictable and because of this, others may see Nikki as somewhat unstable. Nikki Cox is inclined to involve herself with unusual enterprises and tends to become overly excited in the presence of other people.
Nikki Cox tends to have a certain fear of crowds and may find it hard to integrate herself into a group of people. Working with others is not easy for Cox, and she may frequently encounter some upsets or hostility.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Venus/N. Node
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Saturn/Uranus