challenges and difficulties
Kaylani Lei has a penchant for order and precision, and an almost compulsive attention to detail. She is often hypercritical and can be such a demanding perfectionist that she discourages herself or others from even attempting something that will not be done exactly the way Lei knows it should be done.
She frequently over analyzes or picks things apart mentally. Kaylani Lei may also be somewhat of a hypochondriac. Kaylani must learn that she does not have to rationally understand everything in order for it to be valid, and also to relax her unnecessarily high or strict standards.
Lei is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Kaylani Lei does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Kaylani Lei better than being with groups of her own peers.
Kaylani Lei strives and struggles a great deal with her ideals or spiritual aspirations. She may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or she may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, she can never quite divorce herself from her idealistic concerns.
Lei forges ahead diligently, but may have to work harder than others to gain recognition for her efforts. Reserved and shy, Kaylani Lei tends to build a wall between herself and others and she seems to be more receptive to older and more mature people.
Basically shy, Lei tends to be somewhat inhibited in love relationships and may feel uncomfortable or awkward expressing her love for someone. Kaylani Lei longs for love relationships and dreams about love, but is also inclined to torment herself because of a seeming lack of affection.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kaylani Lei instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Kaylani Lei needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Kaylani Lei's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Lei's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Kaylani Lei is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Kaylani should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Kaylani Lei can offer the world at large.
It is in her public life and career that Kaylani Lei is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Lei's reputation and standing in her community or professional circle, as well as how Kaylani Lei achieves her important life goals and aspirations.
Kaylani has an inner need to share her experiences with others and she talks to her friends and acquaintances in a very open manner. Socially minded, Kaylani Lei likes to cultivate close relationships, especially with women.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Virgo
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Sun/Asc.
Saturn Conjunct Venus/Neptune
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Conjunct Moon/Asc.