challenges and difficulties
He is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing himself freely and openly is not easy for Sayeed. Jonathan Sayeed tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of his "performance" is an important task for Jonathan.
Jonathan may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. He strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for him.
On another level entirely, Jonathan Sayeed is very careful about joining forces, and especially his material resources, with others. Sayeed wants to keep his own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
He is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Sayeed is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Jonathan Sayeed is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate his innermost feelings and thoughts.
He is not afraid of hard work and leaves no stone unturned in the pursuit of his objectives. Jonathan Sayeed has a strong desire to overcome any difficulties or obstacles in his way and will do this at all cost, even if it means having to use force.
He is somewhat pessimistic and prone to depression. Jonathan Sayeed may feel like withdrawing from everything, with the sense that he is not adequately equipped to handle his life. He may need someone else's point of view to balance his overly pessimistic outlook.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Jonathan Sayeed instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Jonathan Sayeed needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Jonathan Sayeed benefits by becoming more aware of the rhythm of the seasons and the natural world, learning to slow down and allow life to unfold in its own time. Nurturing a garden, a child, or some other living, growing thing gives Jonathan Sayeed a sense of inner balance.
Jonathan Sayeed has a tendency to be deeply suspicious, to not take anything at face value and to see hidden agendas and dark motives even where none exist! Life does not have to be a constant conflict... Jonathan needs to learn to accept things as they are.
Sayeed also needs to develop patience, peace and stability by grounding himself in his daily work and behaving consistently and reliably towards others.
It is in trying to strike a balance between Sayeed's inner, personal life and his career or involvement with the world at large that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Jonathan Sayeed needs to focus attention on his home and family situation, and create a secure inner anchor.
The following are specific activities that will support Jonathan Sayeed in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Sayeed, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
He needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Jonathan Sayeed has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. He needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Jonathan Sayeed has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating his ability to love and to receive love.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 8th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Mars/Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Uranus/Neptune
N. Node in Taurus
N. Node in 4th house
N. Node Conjunct Venus