challenges and difficulties
John Hawkes has a great capacity for self-denial in the pursuit of a long-range goal. John is capable of hard work and persistent labor, but he may lack the capacity for joy and play. John Hawkes often feels burdened by life's demands and responsibilities, and may envy those who seem to attract what they want in life without a great deal of personal effort.
There is a very judgmental, stern, and uncompromising side of Hawkes' that may inhibit him a great deal. John Hawkes must avoid becoming cumbersome and cynical, or a rather callous, sophisticated adult whose sense of practicality and realism rob him of the playful, imaginative side of life.
John Hawkes has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life that colors everything he does. Caution and realism are his virtues though John limits himself at times by being too careful, shy or fearful, not believing in himself enough, or lacking the required assertiveness. Others find John Hawkes difficult to get to know intimately, as Hawkes tends to distance himself from them or to outwardly adopt a rather stern, "adult" demeanor.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which John Hawkes instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction John Hawkes needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively he is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, John stands alone when he does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. John Hawkes has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that he must be self-reliant and that only he can come up with the answers he needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate him from others, or make John Hawkes feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what John Hawkes calls social "games" do not come naturally to him. John Hawkes needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in his public life and career that John Hawkes is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Hawkes' reputation and standing in his community or professional circle, as well as how John Hawkes achieves his important life goals and aspirations.
The following are specific activities that will support John Hawkes in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Hawkes, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
John Hawkes should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems he faces. It is in Hawkes' best interest to act on his own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for him. John Hawkes needs to assert himself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. John needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick himself up, and go! He also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
John has the inclination to gossip and spread stories or he could be the subject of gossip himself at times. His perception of partnership and family relationships tends to be somewhat unrealistic, and John Hawkes may put up a good front and pretend to have a harmonious life.
John Hawkes seems to have an innate sense of cosmic awareness and is likely to have strong psychical or metaphysical talents. He is inclined to join some parapsychology groups where he may share his unusual experiences with others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Capricorn
Saturn in 1st house
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Neptune/Pluto