challenges and difficulties
Parsons doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Gene is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
He may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Gene Parsons does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Gene Parsons must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
He is a bit skeptical, somewhat irritable, and others may think of Gene Parsons as quarrelsome or nagging. His nervousness seems to stem from his tendency to over-work himself, and Parsons should try not to make more demands on others than they are able to handle.
Basically shy, Gene may become a bit inhibited when talking with other people. Gene Parsons tends to withdraw from others and likes to live a humble, quiet live in seclusion. He may get involved with a group of a secretive nature, although Parsons is not one to join groups in general.
He is subject to rash decisions and impulsive actions that may have sudden, unexpected consequences and undesirable results. Not very adaptable, Gene Parsons could have considerable tension in his relationships and is likely to have disputes or even violent fights with others.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Gene Parsons instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Gene Parsons needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Gene Parsons' path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Parsons' instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Gene Parsons is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Gene should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Gene Parsons can offer the world at large.
It is in his relationships with others that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Gene Parsons between acting spontaneously and being true to himself versus modifying himself or his behavior to suit others. Gene Parsons seesaws between being inordinately concerned with his self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about him. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Parsons' task.
The following are specific activities that will support Gene Parsons in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Parsons, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Gene Parsons' path to wholeness involves confronting his dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming himself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Parsons' willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Gene.
Gene likes beautiful surroundings and knows how to create harmony in his environment. Gene Parsons loves to be around people and has a strong desire to be influential in social circles.
Gene Parsons tends to be fascinated by new and obscure things and may be strongly attracted to the occult. He may contribute to spontaneous forming of groups and could gain spiritual enlightenment together with other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/N. Node
Saturn Conjunct Mars/Uranus
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Asc.
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/Neptune