Although Gary Merrill comes across as a very private, somewhat wary and enigmatic individual (as described on the previous page), there is another, quite different side to him: a person who really wants to be noticed, known, loved and admired.
Proud and intensely individual, Gary Merrill really wants to stand out, to be the very best he can be, and to be recognized and appreciated for his unique contributions. Doing something well and being respected for it is extremely important to him, and he cannot tolerate being relegated to the background, taking orders from others, or being "just one of the team". Gary Merrill must put his personal stamp on whatever he does, and direct his own course in life. Gary Merrill needs to have a place where he can shine, express himself creatively, and be the one in charge.
Gary has big dreams and the determination, spirit, vitality and enthusiasm to realize them. Gary Merrill also has a noble, romantic heart, and a love of the dramatic, colorful, and extravagant.
For Gary Merrill, it is true that "the entire world's a stage" and he secretly (or perhaps not so secretly) desires to be the star or hero of the play. Gary wants to be great and to receive the love and applause of an adoring audience, even if the "audience" is just one other special person. He needs someone to believe in him and his dreams. Though Merrill appears radiantly self-confident and independent, he is actually very dependent on the affirmation, love and recognition of others. He cannot bear going unnoticed or unappreciated.
Gary Merrill also loves wholeheartedly and generously and really knows how to make the person he loves feel special. Gary Merrill loves the magic of "being in love" and knows how to keep the romance alive in his relationships. He is also immensely loyal and will defend his loved ones and stand by them to the end - as long as they never offend his pride or betray his trust. However, Gary Merrill likes to be the strong one in his relationships and he really does not share the leading role very easily. Ideally, Gary needs to find a person who is as strong-willed as he is, but who will not try to dominate or compete with him.
Merrill's strengths are his zest and love for life, his creative power and his warm and generous heart. His primary fault is his tendency to be very egocentric, and so concerned with the impression he is making and with his own creative self-expression that he forgets there is another, larger world that does not revolve around him.
Merrill is very attracted to world travel, foreign cultures and studies that expand his intellectual horizons and broaden his understanding of the world.
Gary Merrill is philosophically inclined and concerned with seeking answers to the big questions of life or getting an overall picture of any situation. Abstract concepts and/or plans for the future occupy his mind much of the time.
Gary Merrill often feels that he is at cross purposes with himself, for his conscious intentions and desires conflict with his subconscious emotional needs and drives. He is torn in two different directions. Gary has difficulty satisfying both his need to be an individual and his need for caring relationships and a sense of belonging. Moreover, Gary sends out mixed messages so people do not always know how to respond to him or what Gary really wants, thereby creating confusion or conflict in close relationships.
If he follows his true nature, his life is apt to be unconventional, unusual, controversial and full of insecurity and excitement. Gary Merrill cannot and will not be forced into a pre-set mold, and Gary finds it difficult to conform. His offbeat interests and tastes lead Merrill to ventures that others may consider too "far-out" or experimental. Gary Merrill has a very creative, inventive streak.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Scorpio and Sun in Leo
Sun in Leo
Sun in 9th house
Sun Square Moon
Sun Opposition Uranus