challenges and difficulties
Merrill is wary of becoming emotionally dependent on others, and may distance himself or deny his needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that he will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, Gary Merrill may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for Gary.
His attitude toward religion, philosophy, and politics is very conservative and possibly narrow or rigid. On the one hand, Gary Merrill may believe in nothing that is speculative or intangible, requiring proof for any idea presented to him. Each idea is thoroughly and systematically examined. On the other hand, Gary may tenaciously cling to his grand philosophical or metaphysical beliefs and opinions, refusing to modify them or to be open and receptive to others' insights and perspectives.
His overall outlook on life is serious, and Gary Merrill may feel that life or God will punish him if he does not watch his step!
He is inclined to feel inferior and may easily be taken in by others. Gary has to guard against being deceived or used by others, though his intentions may be good. Gary Merrill must not let his desire to have things cloud his ability to see what is really happening.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Gary Merrill instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Gary Merrill needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Gary Merrill's path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how Merrill's actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of Merrill's life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support Merrill's ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress he is likely to become overly focused on himself and his own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" Merrill's focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Gary Merrill needs to strike a balance between doing for himself and doing for others, by discovering how Merrill's unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in trying to strike a balance between Merrill's inner, personal life and his career or involvement with the world at large that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Gary Merrill needs to focus attention on his home and family situation, and create a secure inner anchor.
The following are specific activities that will support Gary Merrill in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Merrill, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Gary Merrill should be willing to become more of a free thinker, to experiment and change, to loosen his ties to tradition and the known and to allow for new developments. He needs to practice getting involved in an area involving new techniques, rapid changes and innovation. Gary can be part of the avant-garde promoting such changes - be it in science, music or social relationships. Gary Merrill has to be willing to be different and perhaps to be considered eccentric or odd.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 9th house
Saturn Conjunct Mars/Neptune
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 4th house
N. Node Conjunct Uranus