challenges and difficulties
Brown doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Faith is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
Brown is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Faith Brown does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Faith Brown better than being with groups of her own peers.
Faith Brown strives and struggles a great deal with her ideals or spiritual aspirations. She may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or she may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, she can never quite divorce herself from her idealistic concerns.
Her emotional life is likely to be somewhat strained and she has a tendency toward pessimism. Faith Brown may not feel as close in her relationships to her loved ones as she would like to, and Faith may find it difficult to give and receive love.
Although Faith Brown is generally happy, at times she could become somewhat inhibited and because of this, she may occasionally let good opportunities slip by. Although she is interested in people, Brown also tends to periodically seek seclusion.
Faith tries to build her life on solid ground, but may find it difficult to move forward because she always tends to look back. This could result in feelings of inferiority and periodic depression.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Faith Brown instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Faith Brown needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
When under stress, Faith Brown is apt to shut off the flow of her emotions and ignore her needs and feelings in order to do what she perceives as her duty or simply what the practical realities of the situation dictate. This can lead to a certain rigidity and inflexibility. If overdone, self-control, self-discipline, or an exaggerated concern over what society, family or others expect of her, makes life more of a burden than an adventure.
Fostering her tender, caring, feminine, and nurturing aspects is an important step in Faith Brown's growth. Faith Brown needs to learn how to nourish and lovingly tend to both herself and others. Letting herself be taken care of sometimes is okay!
It is deep within herself, as Faith Brown faces her own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of her life that Faith Brown keeps hidden from public view where she is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
The following are specific activities that will support Faith Brown in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Brown, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Faith Brown should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems she faces. It is in Brown's best interest to act on her own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for her. Faith Brown needs to assert herself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. Faith needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick herself up, and go! She also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
Faith has the inclination to gossip and spread stories or she could be the subject of gossip herself at times. Her perception of partnership and family relationships tends to be somewhat unrealistic, and Faith Brown may put up a good front and pretend to have a harmonious life.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Moon/MC
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/MC
Saturn Conjunct Asc./MC
N. Node in Cancer
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Neptune