challenges and difficulties
Holden either overvalues or undervalues her possessions and assets. She can also go to extremes in dealing with bodily needs and desires, being either hedonistic or ascetic. Amanda Holden may deny herself sensual pleasure and enjoyment of the fruits of her labors. She may also be stingy and unable to give freely. Many times Amanda Holden feels that she does not have "enough" to make her feel secure, regardless of how much (money, insurance, etc.) she has!
She may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Amanda Holden does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Amanda Holden must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Amanda Holden instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Amanda Holden needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Amanda Holden's path lies in cultivating idealism and humanitarian feelings, being concerned with how Holden's actions impact the world at large, perhaps becoming more aware of the social implications of Holden's life style and personal choices or becoming active politically. Participating in organizations that support Holden's ideals is one way to do this.
When under stress she is likely to become overly focused on herself and her own little world.
Instead of "how will this benefit or hurt me?" Holden's focus needs to shift to "how will this affect us all?".
Ideally, Amanda Holden needs to strike a balance between doing for herself and doing for others, by discovering how Holden's unique gifts can benefit others.
It is in her public life and career that Amanda Holden is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Holden's reputation and standing in her community or professional circle, as well as how Amanda Holden achieves her important life goals and aspirations.
The following are specific activities that will support Amanda Holden in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Holden, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Amanda Holden should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Amanda needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Holden's heart and bears the stamp of Holden's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Amanda Holden to grow and become more whole herself.
Amanda has an inner need to share her experiences with others and she talks to her friends and acquaintances in a very open manner. Socially minded, Amanda Holden likes to cultivate close relationships, especially with women.
Holden is somewhat shy and tends to feel inferior when she is with others. Amanda Holden is inclined to establish relationships with weak or sick people and is always willing to help or take care of them.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Taurus
Saturn in 12th house
N. Node in Aquarius
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Conjunct Sun
N. Node Opposition Moon/Asc.
N. Node Conjunct Saturn/Neptune