Alexandra Maria Lara
Behind Lara's rather cool, conservative, somewhat impersonal and businesslike demeanor (as described on the previous page), she is much more passionate and emotional. Alexandra Maria Lara often conceals her vulnerability beneath a veneer of toughness or indifference.
Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, she is not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. Alexandra Maria Lara is extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and she only allows a special few into her inner world. Like a wary animal, she is cautious and mistrustful of those she does not know until "he sniffs them out". She is highly instinctive and intuitive. Alexandra Maria Lara usually has a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though she may be unable to clearly articulate why she feels the way she does. Her feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.
Alexandra Maria Lara also has a powerful need for deep emotional relationships and she forms very intense love bonds and attachments. She is possessive and often jealous of anyone or anything that she perceives as a threat to her relationship with someone she loves. When Alexandra Maria Lara commits herself to someone or something, she is wholeheartedly devoted and expects complete loyalty in return. Alexandra merges with or "marries" the person she loves at a very deep level and therefore separations are extremely painful for her, and often stormy and nasty. When Lara has been wounded, she is not inclined to turn the other cheek and will retaliate if at all possible. Alexandra will most certainly never forget the hurt and she often harbors grievances and resentment for a very long time. Forgiveness does not come easily to her.
Whatever she does, Alexandra does with passion and fervor, and she often goes to extremes. Lara can be hot or cold, but never lukewarm about anything. Lara can also be very narrow-minded: either she is 100% involved in something or it does not exist for her at all. Rarely is Alexandra Maria Lara emotionally detached and objective. She definitely has a fanatical streak. She is also immensely strong-willed and her tenacity in pursuing her objectives often borders on obsession. She is filled with fierce pride, courage and emotional strength.
Alexandra Maria Lara loves mysteries and is deeply attracted to the hidden, dark, secret side of life. Alexandra never takes things at face value and is always probing beneath the surface of people and situations to discover what is really going on. Alexandra Maria Lara tends to be more of a cynic than an idealist.
Lara is very attracted to world travel, foreign cultures and studies that expand her intellectual horizons and broaden her understanding of the world.
Alexandra Maria Lara is philosophically inclined and concerned with seeking answers to the big questions of life or getting an overall picture of any situation. Abstract concepts and/or plans for the future occupy her mind much of the time.
There is an ongoing, subtle conflict within Alexandra Maria Lara between her conscious attitudes and aspirations and her deeper emotional and subconscious beliefs, needs and feelings. This creates considerable inner stress and sometimes paralyzing indecision, mostly due to the fact that Alexandra may be trying to follow a path that is at odds with her subconscious desires. Chronic tightness or tension in her body may well be a signal that Alexandra Maria Lara is denying or suppressing the messages from her subconscious or emotional self.
Ideally, Alexandra Maria Lara will learn to accept and express these two different sides of herself. Should she fail to do so, Lara is likely to be drawn into many relationships with people who reflect her denied or repressed qualities and seem to make her life difficult. (Also read chapter 4 in order to get a better picture of the duality described here.)
Innovative, original, unorthodox and unconventional, she identifies with the role of a rebel, reformer or iconoclast. Alexandra Maria Lara insists upon a great deal of personal freedom and does not easily adapt to others' needs and wishes. Alexandra needs a lifestyle that allows her to be spontaneous. She often feels that she is somehow different from other people and outside of society's mainstream.
Alexandra Maria Lara seems to have an emotional and physical unrest and she always have to be on the move. Alexandra could find it difficult to control herself and she tends to get angry and upset easily. Eccentric and individualistic, she can create a stir wherever she goes.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Capricorn and Sun in Scorpio
Sun in Scorpio
Sun in 9th house
Sun Quincunx Moon
Sun Conjunct Uranus
Sun Conjunct Uranus/MC