challenges and difficulties
Lillian Ellison takes her personal relationships so seriously that they may seem more like work, constant effort and compromise, rather than a free and enjoyable sharing experience. She may feel that relationships in general require more of her than they are worth, and Lillian enters into any close relationship cautiously and conscientiously. Lillian Ellison also fears entrapment in close relationships.
She may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Lillian Ellison does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Lillian Ellison must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Once she decides what she wants to do, Lillian Ellison will pursue her goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for her deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Lillian feel a little out of step with others. Lillian Ellison takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Lillian feels and how driven she is about the things that are important to her. Lillian Ellison has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to her, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
The side of Lillian Ellison that wants and needs structure, order, stability, and a disciplined way of life is at odds with her urges for unfettered freedom, change, excitement, and discovery. There is apt to be much discontent, inner stress, and tension as a result, and at times Lillian finds it hard to relax. Lillian Ellison may act out in a rebellious way now and then, or clamp down hard on herself, in an attempt to strictly control her "wild" impulses. The Fabulous Moolah's task is to try to find a reasonable balance between order and creative chaos in her life.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Lillian Ellison instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Lillian Ellison needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Her natural instinct, especially when under stress, is to passively go along with whatever is easiest, refrain from clearly analyzing or assessing her situation and perhaps even try to escape from seeing her situation clearly by indulging in fantasies, intoxicants, and the like. Dreaminess and impracticality, being unfocused and undefined (at least in certain areas) are ways Lillian Ellison copes with stress. Lillian Ellison also has trouble setting limits and saying no.
Her development path lies in cultivating discrimination and clarity, becoming more precise, and developing technical and practical skills that will enable Lillian Ellison to function more efficiently in the world. Finding a way to be of practical service is also important.
It is in any involvements she has with teams, clubs, organizations, networks, and the like that Lillian Ellison is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above need to be channeled into some sort of group effort or experience, or have some impact on society at large.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Lillian Ellison back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Going to extremes, willful rebelliousness and an instinctive anti-authoritarian attitude. Lillian Ellison seeks constant (and often purposeless) movement or change, involvement with unreliable people, and individual freedom at any cost.
Lillian Ellison is not in the least bit selfish and she has the ability to share the joy she feels with other people. Lillian seems to have a gift for getting more reserved people to open up, teaching them how to give and receive love and affection.
The Fabulous Moolah is a good team worker and has the ability to lead others. Her relationships and associations with others tend to be harmonious and cooperative. Lillian Ellison may also have a very industrious family and she tends to be strongly attached to them.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Libra
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Quincunx Uranus
N. Node in Virgo
N. Node in 11th house
N. Node Opposition Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Jupiter
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Asc.