challenges and difficulties
Susan Anton has a penchant for order and precision, and an almost compulsive attention to detail. She is often hypercritical and can be such a demanding perfectionist that she discourages herself or others from even attempting something that will not be done exactly the way Anton knows it should be done.
She frequently over analyze or pick things apart mentally. Susan Anton may be something of a hypochondriac also. Susan must learn that she does not have to rationally understand everything in order for it to be valid, and also to relax her unnecessarily high or strict standards.
Susan Anton takes her commitments to others very seriously, especially in close one-to-one relationships. Her strong sense of responsibility to the other person makes Anton a trustworthy and dedicated partner, but she often feels that marriage or any binding commitment between her and another person is too restrictive and burdensome, and thus seeks to avoid it. Close relationships may be more work than pleasure for Susan Anton and it may seem that she is always "working on" her marriage rather than enjoying it. However, Anton will persevere and ultimately grow through the process.
Her faith, optimism, and sense of possibilities are tempered by much caution, and often doubt or skepticism as well. Whatever hopes or visions Susan Anton has for her life are firmly held in check by her sense of reality. At times she may wish for more freedom, but Susan also fears it and hang back. Susan Anton may blame practical limitations or some external condition or the prevailing Authority for her own inhibitions.
She is subject to rash decisions and impulsive actions that may have sudden, unexpected consequences and undesirable results. Not very adaptable, Susan Anton could have considerable tension in her relationships and is likely to have disputes or even violent fights with others.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Susan Anton instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Susan Anton needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Cultivating the qualities of empathy, gentleness, and compassion will help counterbalance Anton's deeply ingrained perfectionism and critical nature. When under stress, she is apt to try to rigorously analyze and focus on what needs to be corrected or improved, and she can easily become problem-oriented and lose sight of the big picture.
Susan Anton has to learn to relax and surrender to the flow of events without having to figure everything out all the time. She should let her feelings and intuitions flow more freely, be more flexible and fluid, use her imagination and let her dreams emerge!
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Susan Anton between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Susan Anton seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Anton's task.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Susan Anton back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Susan Anton's rigid self-control overly restricts her ability to freely express herself or explore possibilities. She is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. She tends to be fearful, judgmental towards herself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside herself. Susan Anton should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Anton's responsibility.
She is highly emotional and tends to display her feelings in a theatrical way. Susan Anton seems to enjoy being somewhat eccentric and finds it difficult to adapt herself to others. Although she may seek emotional fulfillment, Susan does not do well in relationships and team work.
Susan likes to be on the go constantly and tends to have a hectic family life. She knows how to eliminate competition, but should guard against rising to the top in her position at the expense of other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Virgo
Saturn in 7th house
Jupiter Quincunx Saturn
Saturn Conjunct Mars/Uranus
N. Node in Pisces
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Opposition Saturn
N. Node Opposition Moon/Pluto
N. Node Opposition Uranus/MC