challenges and difficulties
Peter Lawford takes his personal relationships so seriously that they may seem more like work, constant effort, and compromise, rather than a free and enjoyable sharing. He may feel that relationships in general require more of him than they are worth, and Peter enters into any close relationship cautiously and conscientiously. Peter Lawford also fears entrapment in close relationships.
Peter Lawford has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life which colors everything he does. Caution and realism are his virtues though Peter limits himself at times by being too careful, shy, or fearful, and not believing in himself enough or being assertive when necessary. Others find Peter Lawford difficult to get to know intimately, as Lawford tends to distance himself from them or to put forth a rather stern, "adult" face to the world.
The side of Peter Lawford that wants and needs structure, order, stability, and a disciplined way of life is at odds with his urges for unfettered freedom, change, excitement, and discovery. There is apt to be much discontent, inner stress, and tension due to this, and at times Peter finds it hard to relax. Peter Lawford may act out in a rebellious way now and then, or clamp down hard on himself, in an attempt to strictly control his "wild" impulses. Lawford's task is to try to find a reasonable balance between order and creative chaos in his life.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Peter Lawford instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Peter Lawford needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
His natural instinct, especially when under stress, is to passively go along with whatever is easiest, refrain from clearly analyzing or assessing his situation and perhaps even try to escape from seeing his situation clearly by indulging in fantasies, intoxicants, and the like. Dreaminess and impracticality, being unfocused and undefined (at least in certain areas) are ways Peter Lawford copes with stress. Peter Lawford also has trouble setting limits and saying no.
His development path lies in cultivating discrimination and clarity, becoming more precise, and developing technical and practical skills that will enable Peter Lawford to function more efficiently in the world. Finding a way to be of practical service is also important.
It is deep within himself, as Peter Lawford faces his own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of his life that Peter Lawford keeps hidden from public view where he is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Peter Lawford back, or which he is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Going to extremes, willful rebelliousness and an instinctive anti-authoritarian attitude. Peter Lawford seeks constant (and often purposeless) movement or change, involvement with unreliable people, and individual freedom at any cost.
The following are specific activities that will support Peter Lawford in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Lawford, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Peter Lawford should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put himself "out there", be seen and shine. Peter needs to be willing to take on a leading role. He needs to be a hero - a protagonist in his own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities he possesses. Doing creative work that he is proud of - anything that comes from Lawford's heart and bears the stamp of Lawford's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than he is a way for Peter Lawford to grow and become more whole himself.
He needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Peter Lawford has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. He needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Peter Lawford has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating his ability to love and to receive love.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Libra
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Quincunx Uranus
N. Node in Virgo
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Opposition Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Sun
N. Node Conjunct Venus