Peter Carruthers seems much more objective, unemotional and matter-of-fact than he really is. Despite his fussiness and perfectionism (described in the previous chapter), he is actually very caring and loving. Peter Carruthers needs to make sure to openly express his feelings because otherwise, others do not realize how much he cares about them.
Peter has powerful emotional attachments to the past, his family, his childhood, places he associates with safety and security, and his beginnings. It is very important to Carruthers to maintain a connection with his roots and heritage and keep family bonds strong. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, Carruthers tends to cling to whatever is dear to him - be it a person, a familiar place, or a cherished possession.
He is sympathetic, nurturing, supportive and very sensitive to the emotional needs of other people. Peter likes to be needed and to care for others, and he often worries about the people he loves. Peter Carruthers has a very strong need for a sense of belonging and acceptance, and much of his life centers on his home. He is more concerned about people and their feelings than with power, achievement, or position in society. Kindness, consideration and tenderness are more meaningful to Peter Carruthers than any sort of honor the world can bestow.
He is primarily emotional and his views are often dominated by his feelings and his own personal, subjective experiences, rather than reason, logic or abstract principles. It is difficult for him to judge situations fairly and objectively because his personal sympathies and loyalties usually factor in. Peter Carruthers takes things very personally and sometimes builds a wall around himself to shield himself from pain and rejection. Peter Carruthers feels rather shy and vulnerable at heart. He also tends to be moody and experiences frequent mood swings. Peter Carruthers needs to have a place and time in his life to withdraw, introspect, dream and replenish himself; otherwise Peter Carruthers becomes cranky and unhappy with those around him.
Peter Carruthers functions in an instinctive, irrational manner and likes to immerse himself in creative activities where he can express his feelings, imagination and instincts. Carruthers often loves to cook, since it can be both creative and a way to nurture and nourish others. Peter Carruthers also has a great affinity for music, because it evokes and communicates feelings that may be difficult or impossible to put into words.
His compassion, sensitivity, and imagination are Carruthers' strong points. His faults include an inability to let go of the past and move forward, clannishness and prejudice, and a tendency for self-pity when facing hardship.
Leading groups and classes and being involved in community efforts, social activities, events or movements are areas where Peter Carruthers really shines and expresses his creativity. An awareness of politics or the larger social impact of individual actions comes naturally to him.
There is an ongoing, subtle conflict within Peter Carruthers between his conscious attitudes and aspirations and his deeper emotional and subconscious beliefs, needs and feelings. This creates considerable inner stress and sometimes paralyzing indecision, mostly due to the fact that Peter may be trying to follow a path that is at odds with his subconscious desires. Chronic tightness or tension in his body may well be a signal that Peter Carruthers is denying or suppressing the messages from his subconscious or emotional self.
Ideally, Peter Carruthers will learn to accept and express these two different sides of himself. Should he fail to do so, Carruthers is likely to be drawn into many relationships with people who reflect his denied or repressed qualities and seem to make his life difficult. (Also read chapter 4 in order to get a better picture of the duality described here.)
Peter has to overcome considerable hardship in order to fulfill his personal destiny. However, he has the strength and stamina necessary to do so. Support and helpful guidance from his father or other significant men in his life may well be lacking. In fact, their disapproval of Peter and their harsh criticism are apt to be two of his greatest handicaps, and at times he may feel quite discouraged and alone. But true self-reliance and a solid sense of his own powers may well be the silver lining to that cloud in his life. Peter Carruthers needs to learn to follow his own creative impulses and heart's desires, regardless of what his critics or the authorities may say.
Peter Carruthers has a strong will and the desire to be successful no matter what obstacles or resistance he has to overcome. Whatever he does, he knows what he wants to get out of it and drives toward that end with great vigor.
Peter has the ability to stand on him own feet and use the power of his own personality to attain success. Peter Carruthers needs to be a leader and he has a strong desire to obtain power and authority. It is imperative to Carruthers that he be out in front of the parade.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Virgo and Sun in Cancer
Sun in Cancer
Sun in 11th house
Sun Quincunx Moon
Sun Quincunx Saturn
Sun Conjunct Mars/MC
Sun Conjunct Pluto/MC