challenges and difficulties
Peter Carruthers has a great capacity for self-denial in the pursuit of a long-range goal. Peter is capable of hard work and persistent labor, but he may lack the capacity for joy and play. Peter Carruthers often feels burdened by life's demands and responsibilities, and may envy those who seem to attract what they want in life without a great deal of personal effort.
There is a very judgmental, stern, and uncompromising side of Carruthers' that may inhibit him a great deal. Peter Carruthers must avoid becoming cumbersome and cynical, or a rather callous, sophisticated adult whose sense of practicality and realism rob him of the playful, imaginative side of life.
His childhood or his relationship with his parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent Peter from allowing other people to get close to him in later life. Peter Carruthers feels that he was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether he actually was or not. His early life - at least as Carruthers remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of his needs and feelings. Forgiving his parents and/or letting go of any resentments he has about the limitations that he experienced early in his life is crucial. Also, Peter Carruthers needs to build his own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into his home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Peter accomplish this task.
Peter Carruthers tends to be very sensitive to his surroundings and is strongly influenced by the prevailing conditions surrounding him. Peter may feel that he has more obligations than he can properly handle, and that it is hopeless to even try.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Peter Carruthers instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Peter Carruthers needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively he is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Peter stands alone when he does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Peter Carruthers has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that he must be self-reliant and that only he can come up with the answers he needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate him from others, or make Peter Carruthers feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Peter Carruthers calls social "games" do not come naturally to him. Peter Carruthers needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in his relationships with others that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Peter Carruthers between acting spontaneously and being true to himself versus modifying himself or his behavior to suit others. Peter Carruthers seesaws between being inordinately concerned with his self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about him. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Carruthers' task.
Peter Carruthers has a strong desire to take part in social functions and entertainment and cultivate an active exchange of thoughts with others. Peter also appreciates associations and has the ability to carry enterprises to a successful conclusion through teamwork.
Peter has the inclination to gossip and spread stories or he could be the subject of gossip himself at times. His perception of partnership and family relationships tends to be somewhat unrealistic, and Peter Carruthers may put up a good front and pretend to have a harmonious life.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Capricorn
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Neptune
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Jupiter
N. Node Conjunct Venus/Neptune