challenges and difficulties
Paula has an innate distrust of groups and/or a cynical attitude toward society that may leave her feeling out of step and unable to participate in activities with her peers. Overcoming a sense of aloofness and alienation from others is an important task for Abdul.
Her childhood or her relationships with her parents was restrictive, unloving, or unhappy in ways that may prevent Paula from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Paula Abdul felt deprived in some manner, whether or not she actually was deprived in some way. Emotional separations or repression of her needs and feelings may typify her early life, at least as Abdul remembers it. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Paula Abdul needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Paula accomplish this.
Paula Abdul strives and struggles a great deal with her ideals or spiritual aspirations. She may go through periods of self-denial, asceticism, and in-depth study of religious philosophy and spiritual practices, or she may lose heart and become cynical about religious ideals; however, she can never quite divorce herself from her idealistic concerns.
Paula Abdul tends to be her own worst enemy, demanding inhuman perfection of herself and harshly criticizing or persecuting herself when she does not measure up. Perhaps circumstances or relationships in her life have been extremely difficult and demanding, reinforcing Paula's belief that she must struggle alone.
She is capable of tremendous effort and of overcoming great odds and handicaps. Through these efforts Paula Abdul develops her power and inner strength. However, Paula Abdul should not make life harder than it is. She must give herself permission to let up sometimes, and to realize that she is only human.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Paula Abdul instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Paula Abdul needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Paula Abdul's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Abdul's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Paula Abdul is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Paula should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Paula Abdul can offer the world at large.
It is in her public life and career that Paula Abdul is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Abdul's reputation and standing in her community or professional circle, as well as how Paula Abdul achieves her important life goals and aspirations.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Paula Abdul back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Paula Abdul's rigid self-control overly restricts her ability to freely express herself or explore possibilities. She is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. She tends to be fearful, judgmental towards herself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside herself. Paula Abdul should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Abdul's responsibility.
The following are specific activities that will support Paula Abdul in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Abdul, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Paula Abdul has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Paula Abdul has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
Paula likes to be on the go constantly and tends to have a hectic family life. She knows how to eliminate competition, but should guard against rising to the top in her position at the expense of other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aquarius
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Square Neptune
Saturn Quincunx Pluto
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Opposition Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/MC