Although Tortelier may initially seem rational and emotionally detached (as mentioned in the previous chapter), people who know Paul well see a very sympathetic, feeling person, as described below. The depth of his sensitivity is masked somewhat by his independent or impersonal demeanor.
At heart he is very gentle, impressionable and receptive - a dreamer. The world of his imagination, feelings, and intuition is as real to Paul Tortelier as anything in the outer world, though he may have trouble verbalizing or interpreting his inner experiences in a way others can understand. Mystical, artistic, musical, emotional and imaginative, he has a rich inner life, though Tortelier may seem rather unobtrusive and quiet outwardly. Paul Tortelier usually keeps to himself.
Paul shows great sensitivity and empathy toward others and often senses things psychically or intuitively which prove to be correct. He is tolerant, forgiving and nonjudgmental, accepting people unconditionally regardless of their flaws, mistakes, or outward appearance. Paul has deep compassion for the suffering of any fellow creature and he often feels the pain of others as if it were his own. Paul Tortelier sympathizes with the needy, the disadvantaged and the misfits of society. He is capable of giving selflessly, living a life of devoted and compassionate service to others, as a healer, physician, social worker or minister. However, Tortelier tends to give indiscriminately, to let others take advantage of his kindness, and to encourage the weak to remain so by becoming dependent upon him. Paul has little sense of boundaries, or of knowing when to say "no". Moderation and self-discipline are not his strong points.
He is a lover and a peacemaker rather than a fighter, and he tries to avoid open conflict. Tortelier will patiently ignore or "tune out" problems and hope they will go away by themselves, rather than confront them directly and Tortelier tends to lack the positive, fighting spirit that is sometimes necessary to overcome challenges. He is fluid, open, nonresistant and somewhat passive. Paul Tortelier does things in a subtle, often covert, manner.
His gifts may also lie in the realm of the creative, artistic, or musical, for he possesses great sensitivity, inspiration and limitless imagination. Paul Tortelier has a strong affinity for beauty and love.
His faults include a tendency to be lazy and negligent, and to wallow in self-pity rather than take strong, definite action to change his life for the better. He also tends to become so detached from his immediate environment that he lives in a disorderly, chaotic sort of hodgepodge, though this probably bothers those around Tortelier more than it bothers him.
Paul Tortelier has a clear sense of his own self and he therefore conveys a strong impression to others of who he is and what he wants. Assertive and self-motivated, Tortelier can be a leader - one whom others look to for direction - but he competes and often clashes with other strong individuals. Paul Tortelier feels a need to be in control of his own life and he can be too self-involved, too immersed in his own interests, and oblivious to others at times.
Tortelier's subconscious needs and feelings blend well with his conscious intentions and desires, therefore Paul Tortelier is able to proceed with his life's pursuits relatively unhampered by internal resistance or inconsistency. Paul's male-female relationships will also reflect this state of internal harmony.
He is imaginative and sensitive to anything colorful, beautiful or magical. He is attracted to artistic and creative pursuits, music and mysticism. His spiritual values color Paul's whole perspective and approach to life. He is idealistic and perhaps impractical.
He is intensely willful, zealous, and fanatical though Paul often hides the intensity of his feelings and his personal motives and desires. Tortelier is infatuated with power and has an almost compulsive desire for personal recognition and the desire to be "somebody". Paul Tortelier tends to worship heroes who have powerful personal magnetism and charisma and often seeks to emulate them. Paul Tortelier both fears, and is intensely fascinated with, death and the hidden, secret, dark side of life.
It could be hard for Paul Tortelier to face up to his mistakes because of his insecurity and self-doubt. His early years may have been undermined by poor relationships with one or both of his parents who may have been ill, weak or alcoholic.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Aquarius and Sun in Pisces
Sun in Pisces
Sun in 1st house
Sun Sextile Moon
Sun Trine Neptune
Sun Square Pluto
Sun Opposition Neptune/MC