challenges and difficulties
Tortelier doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Paul is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
His childhood or his relationship with his parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent Paul from allowing other people to get close to him in later life. Paul Tortelier feels that he was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether he actually was or not. His early life - at least as Tortelier remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of his needs and feelings. Forgiving his parents and/or letting go of any resentments he has about the limitations that he experienced early in his life is crucial. Also, Paul Tortelier needs to build his own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into his home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Paul accomplish this task.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Paul Tortelier instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Paul Tortelier needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Cultivating the qualities of empathy, gentleness, and compassion will help counterbalance Tortelier's deeply ingrained perfectionism and critical nature. When under stress, he is apt to try to rigorously analyze and focus on what needs to be corrected or improved, and he can easily become problem-oriented and lose sight of the big picture.
Paul Tortelier has to learn to relax and surrender to the flow of events without having to figure everything out all the time. He should let his feelings and intuitions flow more freely, be more flexible and fluid, use his imagination and let his dreams emerge!
It is in his relationships with others that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Paul Tortelier between acting spontaneously and being true to himself versus modifying himself or his behavior to suit others. Paul Tortelier seesaws between being inordinately concerned with his self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about him. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Tortelier's task.
The following are specific activities that will support Paul Tortelier in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Tortelier, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Paul Tortelier has to learn to communicate and express himself through the written or spoken word. It is best for Paul to study, learn skills and develop his intellectual interests and capacities. Tortelier needs to become involved in sharing and exchanging information with others and in developing his intellectual reasoning ability. Paul Tortelier should practice using his mind, his thinking skills and his ability to be objective. "Work smarter, not harder" might be a motto for him.
Writing, teaching, recording, transcribing, dialoguing, negotiating, mediating, communicating, or facilitating clear communication are significant activities for Paul Tortelier to pursue.
Paul has the power to influence people to his way of thinking and may forcefully try to obtain leadership in his community. Others cannot help noticing him, and Paul Tortelier will probably be the leader in any club or association he joins.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 4th house
N. Node in Pisces
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Mercury
N. Node Opposition Pluto/MC