challenges and difficulties
Claudel both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know him intimately does not come easily to Paul, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Paul Claudel is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Claudel.
It may be difficult for Paul Claudel to play spontaneously or just let his hair down, for he tends to inhibit that side of his by being too self-conscious and concerned with the impression he is making.
Paul may work very hard at some sport or creative medium in order to excel, for he wants very, very much to be noticed, acknowledged and recognized as special in some way. Though he may indeed be outstanding, Paul Claudel also needs to learn to relax and enjoy himself more.
Paul may find it difficult to express himself, thereby feeling inhibited and lonely at times. He tends to isolate himself from others and his relationships come across as strained. Conditions in Paul Claudel's parental home may be oppressive and strained.
He is inclined to preserve and build up his heritage. Others are attracted to him, but at the same time Paul Claudel gives the impression of being unapproachable. Claudel tends to hold back his feelings and is somewhat inhibited with others, especially in his love relationships.
Paul Claudel has a desire to break away from tradition and to free himself from restrictive conditions. Somewhat inflexible and rigid, he may suddenly become inhibited before he sets out on his goals, which could be to Claudel's detriment.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Paul Claudel instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Paul Claudel needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Paul Claudel's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Claudel's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Paul Claudel is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Paul should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Paul Claudel can offer the world at large.
It is in his dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Paul Claudel needs to integrate in tangible ways: how he makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what he does with the resources he has. Paul Claudel should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 5th house
Saturn Opposition Sun/Moon
Saturn Opposition Venus/Jupiter
Saturn Opposition Jupiter/Uranus
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 2nd house