challenges and difficulties
Ferrer both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting himself be known in a deep way does not come easily to Miguel, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Miguel Ferrer is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Ferrer.
He may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Miguel Ferrer does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Miguel Ferrer must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Once he decides what he wants to do, Miguel Ferrer will pursue his goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for his deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Miguel feel a little out of step with others. Miguel Ferrer takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Miguel feels and how driven he is about the things that are important to him. Miguel Ferrer has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to him, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
Miguel could find it difficult to express himself and consequently he feels inhibited and lonely at times. He tends to isolate himself from others and his relationships seem strained. Conditions in Miguel Ferrer's parental home may be oppressive and constrained.
His ambition and desire for power could be somewhat out of proportion and Ferrer can be quite ruthless in dealing with obstacles and difficulties he may be faced with. Miguel Ferrer must learn to control his temper and be willing to compromise.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Miguel Ferrer instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Miguel Ferrer needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Miguel Ferrer has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that he is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Miguel Ferrer needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, he has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, he may encourage others to depend on him emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Miguel Ferrer needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in his dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Miguel Ferrer needs to integrate in tangible ways: how he makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what he does with the resources he has. Miguel Ferrer should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The following are specific activities that will support Miguel Ferrer in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Ferrer, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
He needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Miguel Ferrer has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. He needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Miguel Ferrer has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating his ability to love and to receive love.
Miguel Ferrer seems to be a loner, rather serious and quiet. Perhaps he is burdened by family conditions that weigh him down. Miguel prefers to associate with older or more authoritative people and is happier in a subordinate position.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Sun/Moon
Saturn Conjunct Sun/Pluto
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Sun/Saturn