challenges and difficulties
Leakey either overvalues or undervalues her possessions and assets. She can also go to extremes in dealing with bodily needs and desires, being either hedonistic or ascetic. Mary Leakey may deny herself sensual pleasure and enjoyment of the fruits of her labors. She may also be stingy and unable to give freely. Many times Mary Leakey feels that she does not have "enough" to make her feel secure, regardless of how much (money, insurance, etc.) she has!
She may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Mary Leakey does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Mary Leakey must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Mary Leakey instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Mary Leakey needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Seeking harmonious interpersonal relationships, cooperation, and togetherness, as well as the desire to please or appease other people, are drives that come very naturally to Mary Leakey - so much so that she seeks them out at her own expense. When she is under stress, Leakey tends to look outside herself for approval or answers, and she leans on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look inwardly for answers and forge her own path through life is a key factor in her self-development.
Mary Leakey is often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about her intentions or desires, and she can become enmeshed in a quagmire of "little white lies". Stark honesty - both inward and toward others - is the only way out! This, however, leads to the need to confront some of Leakey's most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if they do not like me?" and "what if I have to go through this alone?".
Mary Leakey needs to cultivate her ability to be assertive, take initiative and act on her own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are imperative.
It is in any involvements she has with teams, clubs, organizations, networks, and the like that Mary Leakey is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above need to be channeled into some sort of group effort or experience, or have some impact on society at large.
The following are specific activities that will support Mary Leakey in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Leakey, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Mary Leakey has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Mary Leakey has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
She is reserved and somewhat conservative in presenting her viewpoints to others and prefers a philosophical discussion rather than small talk. Mary Leakey is quite selective in her choice of subjects and only wants to study what is really of interest to her.
Leakey is a good team worker and has the ability to lead others. Her relationships and associations with others tend to be harmonious and cooperative. Mary Leakey may also have a very industrious family and she tends to be strongly tied to them.
Mary Leakey tends to have far-reaching associations and has a strong desire to be involved with people of high society. She is likely to achieve great success through joint ventures with others and could do well in some political activity.
Mary Leakey tends to feel sad a lot of times and may sympathize with people who are "in the same boat". She is likely to cling to old things and wants to pass on her traditions.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Taurus
Saturn in 12th house
N. Node in Aries
N. Node in 11th house
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Asc.
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Saturn/MC