challenges and difficulties
Warren both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable to others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting them get to know her intimately does not come easily to Lydia, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Lydia Warren is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Warren.
Warren is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Lydia Warren does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Lydia Warren better than being with groups of her own peers.
She is suspicious of groups, crowds, and social organizations. Warren is quick to pick up on social charades and insincerity and avoids the limelight and glamour. Lydia Warren is direct and to the point in speech and manner, stubborn and inflexible, and often unwilling to communicate her innermost feelings and thoughts.
Although Lydia Warren is generally happy, at times she could become somewhat inhibited and because of this, she may occasionally let good opportunities slip by. Although she is interested in people, Warren also tends to periodically seek seclusion.
Lydia Warren strongly rebels against any restrictions and may have the desire to break away and overthrow any thoughts of responsibility. On the other hand, limitations in her life could suddenly wane, thereby leaving Warren free to do her own thing.
Lydia tries to build her life on solid ground, but may find it difficult to move forward because she always tends to look back. This could result in feelings of inferiority and periodic depression.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Lydia Warren instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Lydia Warren needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Lydia Warren needs to take what she has learned (either through formal education or her own questing and life experience) and share it with others, communicate it or express it in a way that can benefit others. Knowledge and understanding, which does not enhance either Lydia's quality of life or that of persons in her world, is of little real value. Putting Warren's understanding, philosophy, and convictions into practice in her daily relationships, and in the multiple choices she makes every day, will enable Lydia Warren to really test her belief system and discover more about life.
When under stress, Lydia Warren is apt to seek refuge in imagining that the grass is greener elsewhere, rather than working with what is at hand. Lydia Warren needs to cultivate her ability to live in the present!
It is in her marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. She may see the qualities that she needs to develop more fully (described above) in her partner. It is important for Lydia Warren to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in her life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them herself. Lydia Warren has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about herself through others.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Lydia Warren back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Escapism through fantasy, intoxicants, or passive, vicarious activities (television, movies, etc.), waiting for a miracle instead of taking constructive steps to help herself, aimlessness or an inability to make and keep commitments, and self deception regarding other people. Lydia has a tendency to be a martyr.
The following are specific activities that will support Lydia Warren in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Warren, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Lydia Warren has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Lydia Warren has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Conjunct Pluto
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/MC
Saturn Conjunct Uranus/MC
Saturn Conjunct Asc./MC
N. Node in Gemini
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Opposition Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Venus