challenges and difficulties
Curtis both yearns for, and fears, being emotionally vulnerable with others and experiencing deep emotional intimacy. Trusting others and letting herself be known in a deep way does not come easily to Kelly, and sexual inhibitions may result from this. Kelly Curtis is very self-protective and may be compulsively secretive. Learning to relinquish control in personal relationships, and to be completely open, is an important task for Curtis.
Her fears revolve around money and material security, and Kelly Curtis works very hard to ensure that her assets are solid. She may be very conservative, even stingy, with her money because she is afraid there will not be enough. She may turn this fear around and become very shrewd about investments and financial matters.
Kelly has an inner conflict between idealism, hope, and faith in the future versus doubt and oppression by limitations and practical realities. Kelly Curtis needs to develop discipline and patience in order to achieve her aspirations. Curtis will grow by learning to accept frustration and to persevere in spite of obstacles.
Once she decides what she wants to do, Kelly Curtis will pursue her goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for her deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Kelly feel a little out of step with others. Kelly Curtis takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Kelly feels and how driven she is about the things that are important to her. Kelly Curtis has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to her, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kelly Curtis instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Kelly Curtis needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
It is easy for Kelly Curtis to become distracted from her path by the multitude of interesting choices, possibilities, and options available to her. Kelly Curtis needs to develop single mindedness and focus. Until Kelly directs her attention to some of the big questions, such as "What is my life's purpose?" "What is really important to me and essential to my happiness?", she is apt to dabble, scatter her energies in many directions and engage in activities which are entertaining but ultimately neither fruitful nor enriching.
Having an overall vision for her life and aligning her daily activities so that they support rather than detract from Curtis' larger purpose in life, is a significant step toward her personal development.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Kelly Curtis needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Kelly Curtis should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Kelly Curtis back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Excessive thinking, rationalizing or talking, the overuse or misuse of Curtis' intellectual abilities and the tendency to allow her energy to be dissipated in trivial activities.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Scorpio
Saturn in 2nd house
Jupiter Square Saturn
Saturn Square Pluto
N. Node in Sagittarius
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Opposition Mercury