challenges and difficulties
Kalpana Chawla has a great capacity for self-denial in the pursuit of a long-range goal. Kalpana is capable of hard work and persistent labor, but she may lack joyfulness and the ability to play. Kalpana Chawla often feels burdened by life's demands and responsibilities, and may envy those who seem to attract what they want in life without a great deal of personal effort.
There is a very judgmental, stern, and uncompromising side of Chawla's which may inhibit her a great deal. Kalpana Chawla must avoid becoming heavy and cynical, or becoming a rather callous, sophisticated adult whose practicality and realism squeeze out the playful, imaginative side of life.
Her childhood or her relationships with her parents was restrictive, unloving, or unhappy in ways that may prevent Kalpana from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Kalpana Chawla felt deprived in some manner, whether or not she actually was deprived in some way. Emotional separations or repression of her needs and feelings may typify her early life, at least as Chawla remembers it. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Kalpana Chawla needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Kalpana accomplish this.
Kalpana dislikes tense or frustrating situations and has a strong desire to free herself from them. Acting quickly at times, Kalpana suddenly overcomes her inner inhibitions. Kalpana Chawla also has the ability to grasp difficult situations correctly and to use them for her advancement.
Somewhat shy, Kalpana finds it difficult to relate to people and tends to withdraw from others. Since it is hard for Kalpana Chawla to establish relationships, she would rather be by herself. Kalpana likes everything simple or plain and prefers a more humble and secluded life.
Kalpana Chawla strongly rebels against any restrictions and may have the desire to break away, over-throwing all thought of responsibility. On the other hand, limitations in her live also could suddenly pass away, leaving Chawla free to do her own thing.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Kalpana Chawla instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Kalpana Chawla needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Kalpana Chawla's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Chawla's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Kalpana Chawla is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Kalpana should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Kalpana Chawla can offer the world at large.
It is in any involvements she has with teams, clubs, organizations, networks, and the like that Kalpana Chawla is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above need to be channeled into some sort of group effort or experience, or have some impact on society at large.
The following are specific activities that will support Kalpana Chawla in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Chawla, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Kalpana Chawla should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems she faces. It is in Chawla's best interest to act on her own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for her. Kalpana Chawla needs to assert herself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. Kalpana needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick herself up, and go! She also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
Kalpana Chawla should be willing to become more of a free thinker, to experiment and change, to loosen her ties to tradition and the known and to allow for new developments. She needs to practice getting involved in an area involving new techniques, rapid changes and innovation. Kalpana can be part of the avant-garde promoting such changes - be it in science, music or social relationships. Kalpana Chawla has to be willing to be different and perhaps to be considered eccentric or odd.
Her nature is a bit restless and unpredictable and because of this, others may see Kalpana as somewhat unstable. Kalpana Chawla is inclined to involve herself with unusual enterprises and tends to become overly excited in the presence of other people.
Chawla constantly seems to be under tremendous pressure and she wants to achieve record performances. Having a strong desire to accomplish immense tasks in team-work with others, Kalpana Chawla has a tendency to demand too much of other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Capricorn
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Opposition Mercury/Uranus
Saturn Opposition Venus/Asc.
Saturn Opposition Uranus/MC
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 11th house
N. Node Conjunct Mars
N. Node Conjunct Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Mars/Uranus
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/Pluto