challenges and difficulties
Konrads doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Ilsa is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
She may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Ilsa Konrads does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Ilsa Konrads must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Ilsa Konrads has a tendency to be overly critical of herself. She may be plagued by feelings of guilt about certain past events, leading to further self-doubt. Ilsa must learn to handle her frustration, depression and discontent and try to overcome her lack of self-confidence.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Ilsa Konrads instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Ilsa Konrads needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Ilsa Konrads' path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Konrads' instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Ilsa Konrads is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Ilsa should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Ilsa Konrads can offer the world at large.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Ilsa Konrads between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Ilsa Konrads seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Konrads' task.
The following are specific activities that will support Ilsa Konrads in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Konrads, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Ilsa Konrads' path to wholeness involves confronting her dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming herself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Konrads' willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Ilsa.
Ilsa likes beautiful surroundings and knows how to create harmony in her environment. Ilsa Konrads loves to be around people and has a strong desire to be influential in social circles.
Ilsa Konrads tends to be fascinated by new and obscure things and may be strongly attracted to the occult. She may contribute to the spontaneous forming of groups and may gain spiritual enlightenment together with others.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Mars
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Asc.
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/Neptune