challenges and difficulties
Gerard doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Gil is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
His fears revolve around money and material security, and Gil Gerard works very hard to ensure that his assets are solid. He may be very conservative, even stingy, with his money because he is afraid there will not be enough. He may turn this fear around and become very shrewd about investments and financial matters.
He is serious and sincere about his interests, does not accept superficial answers and is not easily placated. Gil wants his inspirations to become reality and he does not mind upsetting a few apple carts in the process. Gil Gerard becomes impatient with others for being hesitant to implement new ideas and take action, and his occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
He is inclined to be quite reserved and cautious in his relationships with others. But Gil may also have an exaggerated regard for other peoples views and could give them more credence than they are worth.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Gil Gerard instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Gil Gerard needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Gil Gerard's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Gerard's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Gil Gerard is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Gil should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Gil Gerard can offer the world at large.
The arena he is most likely to wrestle with these issues is in playful self-expression, games or sports, and creativity. Gil Gerard should try to develop any artistic, expressive, creative potentials he feels he possesses, utilizing the qualities described above.
The following are specific activities that will support Gil Gerard in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Gerard, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Gil Gerard should care for and nourish children, plants, pets or other people. He needs to make a home, create and sustain strong relationships with his family or a community that can support him and give him a sense of safety and belonging.
Gil Gerard should develop his listening skills and deepen his understanding and appreciation of women and their perspective. Gil Gerard has to learn to trust his own feelings, intuitions and emotional needs. He needs to care for himself in an accepting, non-judgmental way.
It is in Gil Gerard's best interest to take all that is good and helpful from his past and use it in a new way. (If he is so inclined, Gil may want to explore the potential of past-life regression to tap into gifts he has already developed).
Gerard is a good team worker and has the ability to lead others. His relationships and associations with others tend to be harmonious and cooperative. Gil Gerard may also have a very industrious family and he tends to be strongly tied to them.
Gil Gerard tends to be a bit too idealistic and may place too much hope on his relationships, resulting in frequent disappointments. Gil could be attracted to naive people, but some of his contacts also may turn out to be swindlers.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 2nd house
Saturn Conjunct Uranus
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/Asc.
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 5th house
N. Node Conjunct Moon
N. Node Opposition Mars/Asc.
N. Node Conjunct Jupiter/Neptune