challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Devon. Devon tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Devon.
Devon has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life that colors everything she does. Caution and realism are her virtues though Devon limits herself at times by being too careful, shy or fearful, not believing in herself enough, or lacking the required assertiveness. Others find Devon difficult to get to know intimately, as Devon tends to distance herself from them or to outwardly adopt a rather stern, "adult" demeanor.
Devon becomes tense and upset rather easily. She becomes irritated by the unwillingness of others to make changes. In her eagerness to see her inspirations materialize, Devon is inclined to forego tact and diplomacy in favor of achieving her goals. Her occasional outbreaks of brusque, insensitive behavior often do more harm than good.
Devon tends to be somewhat insecure and uncertain about her direction in life. Frequently plagued by doubt and fear, she is inclined to worry a lot. Because Devon lacks the confidence to fight back, she may allow herself to become the victim of others.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Devon instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Devon needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Instinctively she is a fighter and an individualist who can stand alone when necessary. Very often, however, Devon stands alone when she does not need to, not realizing the support, assistance, and resources others may have to offer. Devon has a tendency to "reinvent the wheel" and to feel that she must be self-reliant and that only she can come up with the answers she needs. Implicit in this attitude is a kind of arrogance as well as a rather competitive approach, which - at its worst - can alienate her from others, or make Devon feel that "it is me against the world".
Social skills and graces and what Devon calls social "games" do not come naturally to her. Devon needs to learn how to share and join others, and how to negotiate and resolve conflict with others in a cooperative way.
It is in trying to strike a balance between Devon's inner, personal life and her career or involvement with the world at large that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Devon needs to focus attention on her home and family situation, and create a secure inner anchor.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Devon back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Excessive thinking, rationalizing or talking, the overuse or misuse of Devon's intellectual abilities and the tendency to allow her energy to be dissipated in trivial activities.
The tendency for self-indulgence, laziness, and over-reliance on the generosity or affection of others, as well as making love relationships, social life and superficial pleasures more important than anything else in her life.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Square Uranus
Saturn Opposition Neptune/MC
N. Node in Libra
N. Node in 4th house
N. Node Opposition Mercury
N. Node Opposition Venus