challenges and difficulties
Caine is wary of becoming emotionally dependent on others, and may distance herself or deny her needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that she will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, Darian Caine may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for Darian.
Darian Caine takes her commitments to others very seriously, especially in close one-to-one relationships. Her strong sense of responsibility to the other person makes Caine a trustworthy and dedicated partner, but she often feels that marriage or any binding commitment between her and another person is too restrictive and burdensome, and thus seeks to avoid it. Close relationships may be more work than pleasure for Darian Caine and it may seem that she is always "working on" her marriage rather than enjoying it. However, Caine will persevere and ultimately grow through the process.
Her faith, optimism, and sense of possibilities are tempered by a great deal of caution, and often doubt or skepticism as well. Whatever hopes or visions Darian Caine has for her life are firmly held in check by her sense of reality. At times she may wish for more freedom, but Darian also fears it and holds back. Darian Caine may blame practical limitations, some external condition or the prevailing Authority for her own inhibitions.
Once she decides what she wants to do, Darian Caine will pursue her goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for her deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Darian feel a little out of step with others. Darian Caine takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Darian feels and how driven she is about the things that are important to her. Darian Caine has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to her, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
At times Darian Caine struggles with nebulous worries, insecurities and fears that may be difficult to pinpoint. Mostly, she may be afraid of getting acquainted with the inner workings of her mind and soul, feeling uneasy with anything irrational or intangible. Darian Caine has to work hard to overcome being overly serious regarding the spiritual side of life, especially if her religious upbringing emphasized guilt and retribution. Reorienting herself in the direction of spiritual optimism will do much to lift the cloud of worry that settles over Darian occasionally.
Because she lacks self-confidence, Darian Caine has the feeling that her luck has abandoned her. She is inclined to sit and wait for the right opportunities to come along, place too much emphasis on wishful thinking, and then get disappointed when nothing happens.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Darian Caine instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Darian Caine needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Darian Caine has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that she is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Darian Caine needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, she has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, she may encourage others to depend on her emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Darian Caine needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Darian Caine between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Darian Caine seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Caine's task.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Darian Caine back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Darian Caine's rigid self-control overly restricts her ability to freely express herself or explore possibilities. She is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. She tends to be fearful, judgmental towards herself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside herself. Darian Caine should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Caine's responsibility.
Darian Caine has a strong desire to take part in social functions and entertainment and cultivate an active exchange of thoughts with others. Darian also appreciates associations and has the ability to carry enterprises to a successful conclusion through teamwork.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 7th house
Jupiter Quincunx Saturn
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Quincunx Neptune
Saturn Opposition Jupiter/Neptune
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Opposition Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Jupiter