challenges and difficulties
Claudia has difficulty asserting her will and desires directly and openly. She may also suppress her anger and aggressiveness. Developing self-confidence, courage, and faith in herself are important tasks for Gonson.
Claudia Gonson has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life which colors everything she does. Caution and realism are her virtues though Claudia limits herself at times by being too careful, shy, or fearful, and not believing in herself enough or being assertive when necessary. Others find Claudia Gonson difficult to get to know intimately, as Gonson tends to distance herself from them or to put forth a rather stern, "adult" face to the world.
A deep thinker, Claudia Gonson has good powers of concentration. But Gonson thinks slowly and takes her time making decisions, which is likely to be based on practical and economical methods. Having little to say, Claudia Gonson prefers to talk about serious or sad things.
Gonson may find it difficult to relate to people and express her feelings, especially in love relationships. On one hand, Claudia Gonson wants relationships and on the other she would rather be by herself. A sense of personal inadequacy makes Claudia withdraw from others and feeling lonely as a result.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Claudia Gonson instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Claudia Gonson needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Seeking harmonious interpersonal relationships, cooperation, and togetherness, as well as the desire to please or appease other people, are drives that come very naturally to Claudia Gonson - so much so that she seeks them out at her own expense. When she is under stress, Gonson tends to look outside herself for approval or answers, and she leans on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look inwardly for answers and forge her own path through life is a key factor in her self-development.
Claudia Gonson is often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about her intentions or desires, and she can become enmeshed in a quagmire of "little white lies". Stark honesty - both inward and toward others - is the only way out! This, however, leads to the need to confront some of Gonson's most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if they do not like me?" and "what if I have to go through this alone?".
Claudia Gonson needs to cultivate her ability to be assertive, take initiative and act on her own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are imperative.
It is in her relationships with others that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. There is a dynamic balance (or conflict) within Claudia Gonson between acting spontaneously and being true to herself versus modifying herself or her behavior to suit others. Claudia Gonson seesaws between being inordinately concerned with her self to being overly conciliatory and concerned with others' needs, rights, or opinions about her. Learning to act authentically and forthrightly regardless of possible consequences is Gonson's task.
The following are specific activities that will support Claudia Gonson in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Gonson, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Claudia Gonson should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Claudia needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Gonson's heart and bears the stamp of Gonson's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Claudia Gonson to grow and become more whole herself.
Claudia Gonson should foster self-discipline and learn to handle responsibility. She may shoulder an inordinate amount of responsibility as well as burdens that sometimes limit Gonson's activities and opportunities in life. However, this is a maturing and ultimately empowering process. She is also likely to be offered positions of tremendous responsibility, whether Claudia really wants such jobs or not, usually because she has invested real effort and made some sort of substantial contribution.
There may be considerable obstacles in her path - more adversity than others seem to face - and Gonson's task is to learn to cope with pressure and persevere.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Aries
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Mars
Saturn Conjunct Venus/Mars
N. Node in Aries
N. Node in 1st house
N. Node Conjunct Sun
N. Node Conjunct Saturn