Although Murphy may seem quite poised, even-tempered, balanced and harmonious (as mentioned in the previous chapter), she is actually rather moody and emotional. Inside, she is much more subjective and biased in her attitudes than her fair-minded, reasonable demeanor may imply.
Carolyn has powerful emotional attachments to the past, her family, her childhood, places she associates with safety and security, and her beginnings. It is very important to Murphy to maintain a connection with her roots and heritage and keep family bonds strong. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, Murphy tends to cling to whatever is dear to her - be it a person, a familiar place, or a cherished possession.
She is sympathetic, nurturing, supportive and very sensitive to the emotional needs of other people. Carolyn likes to be needed and to care for others, and she often worries about the people she loves. Carolyn Murphy has a very strong need for a sense of belonging and acceptance, and much of her life centers on her home. She is more concerned about people and their feelings than with power, achievement, or position in society. Kindness, consideration and tenderness are more meaningful to Carolyn Murphy than any sort of honor the world can bestow.
She is primarily emotional and her views are often dominated by her feelings and her own personal, subjective experiences, rather than reason, logic or abstract principles. It is difficult for her to judge situations fairly and objectively because her personal sympathies and loyalties usually factor in. Carolyn Murphy takes things very personally and sometimes builds a wall around herself to shield herself from pain and rejection. Carolyn Murphy feels rather shy and vulnerable at heart. She also tends to be moody and experiences frequent mood swings. Carolyn Murphy needs to have a place and time in her life to withdraw, introspect, dream and replenish herself; otherwise Carolyn Murphy becomes cranky and unhappy with those around her.
Carolyn Murphy functions in an instinctive, irrational manner and likes to immerse herself in creative activities where she can express her feelings, imagination and instincts. Murphy often loves to cook, since it can be both creative and a way to nurture and nourish others. Carolyn Murphy also has a great affinity for music, because it evokes and communicates feelings that may be difficult or impossible to put into words.
Her compassion, sensitivity, and imagination are Murphy's strong points. Her faults include an inability to let go of the past and move forward, clannishness and prejudice, and a tendency for self-pity when facing hardship.
Her career, reputation, and public image are very important to Murphy. Carolyn Murphy has a strong desire to be influential or make her mark on the world. The merely personal sphere does not satisfy her; her ambitions include making a major contribution and receiving broad recognition for her unique effort and gifts. Carolyn Murphy may undervalue the personal or inner side of life.
Carolyn has big aspirations and the desire to succeed in life in a grand way. Carolyn Murphy tends to exaggerate, promise more than is feasible and misjudge by being overly optimistic. However, she never gives up on her hopes for the future. Murphy tends to be restless and discontent with the responsibilities and limitations of life.
However she also has a more somber side, which keeps Murphy's optimism from becoming ungrounded or overblown. Carolyn Murphy tends to seesaw between her faith, vision and high aspirations, and her caution and realism (or fear!). She cannot and does not rely on good luck or grace alone, and she accepts the need for hard work. Her skeptical or "somber" side is described below.
Carolyn Murphy has a mature and often somber demeanor. She is serious, reserved, self-disciplined, highly responsible and conscientious. She progresses rather slowly in life, through her own efforts and persistence. She is also rather stern and judgmental, especially with herself. Cautious and careful, it is difficult for her to really let go, be spontaneous and playful. Carolyn likes to be in control of herself.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Libra and Sun in Cancer
Sun in Cancer
Sun in 10th house
Sun Square Jupiter
Sun aspects Jupiter and Saturn
Sun Conjunct Saturn