challenges and difficulties
Begnaud is wary of becoming emotionally dependent on others, and may distance herself or deny her needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that she will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, Carlene Begnaud may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for Jazz.
Jazz may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. She strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for her.
On another level entirely, Carlene Begnaud is very careful about joining forces, and especially her material resources, with others. Begnaud wants to keep her own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
Her faith, optimism, and sense of possibilities are tempered by a great deal of caution, and often doubt or skepticism as well. Whatever hopes or visions Carlene Begnaud has for her life are firmly held in check by her sense of reality. At times she may wish for more freedom, but Jazz also fears it and holds back. Carlene Begnaud may blame practical limitations, some external condition or the prevailing Authority for her own inhibitions.
Once she decides what she wants to do, Carlene Begnaud will pursue her goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for her deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Jazz feel a little out of step with others. Carlene Begnaud takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Jazz feels and how driven she is about the things that are important to her. Carlene Begnaud has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to her, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
At times Carlene Begnaud struggles with nebulous worries, insecurities and fears that may be difficult to pinpoint. Mostly, she may be afraid of getting acquainted with the inner workings of her mind and soul, feeling uneasy with anything irrational or intangible. Carlene Begnaud has to work hard to overcome being overly serious regarding the spiritual side of life, especially if her religious upbringing emphasized guilt and retribution. Reorienting herself in the direction of spiritual optimism will do much to lift the cloud of worry that settles over Jazz occasionally.
Carlene Begnaud has a tendency to be overly critical of herself. She may be plagued by feelings of guilt about certain past events, leading to further self-doubt. Jazz must learn to handle her frustration, depression and discontent and try to overcome her lack of self-confidence.
As a deep thinker, Carlene Begnaud has good powers of concentration. However Begnaud thinks slowly and takes her time making decisions, which are likely to be based on considerations of practicality and economy. Having little to say, Carlene Begnaud prefers to talk about serious or sad things.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Carlene Begnaud instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Carlene Begnaud needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Carlene Begnaud has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that she is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Carlene Begnaud needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, she has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, she may encourage others to depend on her emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Carlene Begnaud needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Carlene Begnaud needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Carlene Begnaud should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Carlene Begnaud back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Carlene Begnaud's rigid self-control overly restricts her ability to freely express herself or explore possibilities. She is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. She tends to be fearful, judgmental towards herself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside herself. Carlene Begnaud should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Begnaud's responsibility.
She is a born leader and has the ability to persuade members of a group or association she belongs to. Begnaud always promotes the fostering of good fellowship and teamwork, which ensures the success of any plans or joint undertakings she may pursue.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 8th house
Jupiter Quincunx Saturn
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Quincunx Neptune
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Mars
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Mars
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Opposition Saturn
N. Node Opposition Sun/Mars