challenges and difficulties
Bruce Payne has a great capacity for self-denial in the pursuit of a long-range goal. Bruce is capable of hard work and persistent labor, but he may lack the capacity for joy and play. Bruce Payne often feels burdened by life's demands and responsibilities, and may envy those who seem to attract what they want in life without a great deal of personal effort.
There is a very judgmental, stern, and uncompromising side of Payne's that may inhibit him a great deal. Bruce Payne must avoid becoming cumbersome and cynical, or a rather callous, sophisticated adult whose sense of practicality and realism rob him of the playful, imaginative side of life.
He may have vague but ever-present feelings of guilt and fear that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Bruce Payne does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Bruce Payne must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Bruce Payne instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Bruce Payne needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
His natural instinct, especially when under stress, is to passively go along with whatever is easiest, refrain from clearly analyzing or assessing his situation and perhaps even try to escape from seeing his situation clearly by indulging in fantasies, intoxicants, and the like. Dreaminess and impracticality, being unfocused and undefined (at least in certain areas) are ways Bruce Payne copes with stress. Bruce Payne also has trouble setting limits and saying no.
His development path lies in cultivating discrimination and clarity, becoming more precise, and developing technical and practical skills that will enable Bruce Payne to function more efficiently in the world. Finding a way to be of practical service is also important.
It is in his marriage and other intimate, one-to-one relationships that he is most likely to wrestle with these issues. He may see the qualities that he needs to develop more fully (described above) in his partner. It is important for Bruce Payne to recognize, appreciate, and listen to the people in his life who express such attributes, as well as to develop them himself. Bruce Payne has to put energy and attention into learning about others, and about himself through others.
The following are specific activities that will support Bruce Payne in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Payne, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Bruce Payne's path to wholeness involves confronting his dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming himself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Payne's willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Bruce.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Capricorn
Saturn in 12th house
N. Node in Virgo
N. Node in 7th house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto