challenges and difficulties
She is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing herself freely and openly is not easy for Totter. Audrey Totter tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of her "performance" is an important task for Audrey.
Her childhood or her relationship with her parents was restrictive, unloving or unhappy in ways that may prevent Audrey from allowing other people to get close to her in later life. Audrey Totter feels that she was deprived in one form or another, regardless of whether she actually was or not. Her early life - at least as Totter remembers it - may have been marked by emotional separation or repression of her needs and feelings. Forgiving her parents and/or letting go of any resentments she has about the limitations that she experienced early in her life is crucial. Also, Audrey Totter needs to build her own solid foundation, and investing time and energy into her home, domestic relationships, and inner life can help Audrey accomplish this task.
She is not afraid of hard work and leaves no stone unturned in the pursuit of her objectives. Audrey Totter has a strong desire to overcome any difficulties or obstacles in her way and will do this at all cost, even if it means having to use force.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Audrey Totter instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Audrey Totter needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Audrey Totter has a great capacity for sympathy, tenderness, and caring, which is a gift that she is apt to over bestow at times. For balance, Audrey Totter needs to foster mature self-discipline, self-control, and personal responsibility.
When under stress, she has a strong instinct to retreat back to the nest, to be a child again, or to become overwhelmed with feelings and longings to be taken care of. Also, she may encourage others to depend on her emotionally (and otherwise) to an unhealthy degree. Audrey Totter needs to learn how to set limits and to turn off the flow of support when necessary.
It is in fostering a personal vision or philosophy of life, whether through religious or philosophical studies, education or the wisdom of distant lands or cultures that Audrey Totter is most likely to wrestle with these issues. Audrey Totter needs to cultivate the qualities described above in this endeavor. Long distance communication and involvement with foreigners is likely to be significant to Totter.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Audrey Totter back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Staying in relationships with domineering, controlling, abusive people or being manipulative. Audrey sometimes abuses her own power to use others to her own selfish ends.
The following are specific activities that will support Audrey Totter in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Totter, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Audrey Totter should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Audrey needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Totter's heart and bears the stamp of Totter's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Audrey Totter to grow and become more whole herself.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 4th house
Saturn Conjunct Mars/Pluto
N. Node in Capricorn
N. Node in 9th house
N. Node Opposition Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Sun