challenges and difficulties
Allison Baver has a penchant for order and precision, and an almost compulsive attention to detail. She is often hypercritical and can be such a demanding perfectionist that she discourages herself or others from even attempting something that will not be done exactly the way Baver knows it should be done.
She frequently over analyze or pick things apart mentally. Allison Baver may be something of a hypochondriac also. Allison must learn that she does not have to rationally understand everything in order for it to be valid, and also to relax her unnecessarily high or strict standards.
Baver is generally not a "joiner" and she does not feel comfortable in clubs, organizations or other groups of people that are centered on some common ideal or interest. If Allison Baver does participate in a group, she may find the rules and procedures restrictive - or she may simply feel that she does not fit in with the others.
Being alone or with older, more experienced people suits Allison Baver better than being with groups of her own peers.
Allison Baver has a tendency to be too critical of herself. She may be plagued by feelings of guilt about some past events, leading to further self-doubt. Allison must learn to handle her frustration, depression and discontentment and try to overcome her lack of self-confidence.
She is likely to have very intense experiences in her emotional life and should guard against feelings of depression and inhibition. Allison Baver could be plagued by inner turmoil and obsessive ideas or notions.
She is inclined to be rather serious and withdrawn. Feeling very uncomfortable in the presence of others, Allison Baver shies away from social contacts and prefers to be by herself.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Allison Baver instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Allison Baver needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Allison Baver's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Baver's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Allison Baver is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Allison should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Allison Baver can offer the world at large.
It is in her public life and career that Allison Baver is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Baver's reputation and standing in her community or professional circle, as well as how Allison Baver achieves her important life goals and aspirations.
The following are specific activities that will support Allison Baver in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Baver, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Allison Baver should develop true self-confidence and the willingness to put herself "out there", be seen and shine. Allison needs to be willing to take on a leading role. She needs to be a hero - a protagonist in her own story - by cultivating the courageous, active, and positive masculine qualities she possesses. Doing creative work that she is proud of - anything that comes from Baver's heart and bears the stamp of Baver's individuality - is important. Also, being a mentor, a helpful, encouraging force in the life of someone less experienced than she is a way for Allison Baver to grow and become more whole herself.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Virgo
Saturn in 11th house
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Mars
Saturn Conjunct Moon/Pluto
Saturn Conjunct N. Node/Asc.
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Conjunct Sun