challenges and difficulties
Bilzerian doubts his own intelligence and mental capacities, and he may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Alan is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for him.
He may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Alan Bilzerian does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend himself from its dangers and its unknowns. Alan Bilzerian must learn to overcome his ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
He is likely to find it hard to make decisions, looking forward to the future with great enthusiasm on one hand, but afraid of misjudgments on the other. Never quite sure about anything, Alan Bilzerian may withdraw from situations and people periodically.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Alan Bilzerian instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Alan Bilzerian needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Alan Bilzerian's path lies in his development as an individual, the discovery of his own strengths and joys, the capacity to express his uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Bilzerian's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Alan Bilzerian is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, he may believe that striving to do his personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Alan should let go of this notion. Finding his own center and doing what gives him delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Alan Bilzerian can offer the world at large.
It is in his way of thinking, processing information and communicating that Alan Bilzerian is most likely to wrestle with these issues. In Bilzerian's relationships with neighbors, colleagues, and acquaintances, he needs to try to bring out the qualities described above.
The following are specific activities that will support Alan Bilzerian in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Bilzerian, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Alan Bilzerian's path to wholeness involves confronting his dark and hidden recesses, bringing them out into the open, and transforming himself in the process. Healing abilities develop as a result of Bilzerian's willingness to experience and transform deep emotions such as grief, anger, and pain. Furthermore, bringing light to the darkness and pain in the world without becoming overwhelmed by it is a significant challenge for Alan.
Alan Bilzerian tends to be fascinated by new and obscure things and may be strongly attracted to the occult. He may contribute to spontaneous forming of groups and could gain spiritual enlightenment together with other people.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 12th house
Saturn Conjunct Mercury/Jupiter
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 3rd house
N. Node Conjunct Pluto
N. Node Conjunct Uranus/Neptune