challenges and difficulties
Zola Budd often has a sense of longing or homesickness for something she cannot name or specify, and she may have both: great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for Budd.
She may have nebulous but ever-present guilt and fears that are difficult to pinpoint or eradicate. It is as if Zola Budd does not trust Life itself, and is always seeking ways to defend herself from its dangers and its unknowns. Zola Budd must learn to overcome her ingrained habit of discouragement and anxiety, and to see the world more as a friendly place than as a treacherous one.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Zola Budd instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Zola Budd needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Zola Budd benefits by becoming more aware of the rhythm of the seasons and the natural world, learning to slow down and allow life to unfold in its own time. Nurturing a garden, a child, or some other living, growing thing gives Zola Budd a sense of inner balance.
Zola Budd has a tendency to be deeply suspicious, to not take anything at face value and to see hidden agendas and dark motives even where none exist! Life does not have to be a constant conflict... Zola needs to learn to accept things as they are.
Budd also needs to develop patience, peace and stability by grounding herself in her daily work and behaving consistently and reliably towards others.
It is in her dealings with money, financial security, tangible assets and possessions that she is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The qualities described above are ones Zola Budd needs to integrate in tangible ways: how she makes a living, building assets and a secure material base, what she does with the resources she has. Zola Budd should try to avoid over involvement or entanglements with other people's money matters, legal business, and personal affairs.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Zola Budd back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Escapism through fantasy, intoxicants, or passive, vicarious activities (television, movies, etc.), waiting for a miracle instead of taking constructive steps to help herself, aimlessness or an inability to make and keep commitments, and self deception regarding other people. Zola has a tendency to be a martyr.
The following are specific activities that will support Zola Budd in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Budd, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
Zola Budd should become a warrior and cultivate a positive, victorious, active approach to life and to any problems she faces. It is in Budd's best interest to act on her own behalf instead of stalling, waiting or hoping someone else will do it for her. Zola Budd needs to assert herself openly and courageously and not to be afraid to make mistakes or stumble; there are bound to be a few trial runs to any new initiative. Zola needs to foster a healthy fighting spirit, pick herself up, and go! She also should learn to appreciate conflict and confrontation as a means to grow.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Pisces
Saturn in 12th house
N. Node in Taurus
N. Node in 2nd house
N. Node Opposition Neptune
N. Node Conjunct Mars