challenges and difficulties
Kim is wary of becoming emotionally dependent on others, and may distance herself or deny her needs for relationships of closeness and intimacy so that she will not be vulnerable to rejection or abandonment. On the other hand, Yunjin Kim may cling excessively or need constant reassurance from loved ones and family. Developing a deep, inner sense of security, as well as the ability to give and receive nurturing are important tasks for Yunjin.
Yunjin Kim takes both her work and her health very seriously, but she may demand so much of herself at work that she compromises her health. Yunjin can become a workaholic, not so much because she has lofty ambitions, but because she never feels like she has done enough. Yunjin Kim is overly responsible or overly conscientious at work, so much so that she may not enjoy it at all.
Kim can also get overly involved in self-improvement or her health, and she tends to be a bit of a hypochondriac.
Her faith, optimism, and sense of possibilities are tempered by a great deal of caution, and often doubt or skepticism as well. Whatever hopes or visions Yunjin Kim has for her life are firmly held in check by her sense of reality. At times she may wish for more freedom, but Yunjin also fears it and holds back. Yunjin Kim may blame practical limitations, some external condition or the prevailing Authority for her own inhibitions.
Once she decides what she wants to do, Yunjin Kim will pursue her goal tenaciously and, if necessary, sacrifice a great deal for her deeply felt convictions. This trait tends to make Yunjin feel a little out of step with others. Yunjin Kim takes things a little more seriously and has an inclination to be somewhat of a fanatic, although probably not flamboyantly so; as a result, others may not be aware of how deeply Yunjin feels and how driven she is about the things that are important to her. Yunjin Kim has a deep inner resolve and is willing to struggle to do the things that are really meaningful to her, rather than follow an easier but less meaningful course in life.
At times Yunjin Kim struggles with nebulous worries, insecurities and fears that may be difficult to pinpoint. Mostly, she may be afraid of getting acquainted with the inner workings of her mind and soul, feeling uneasy with anything irrational or intangible. Yunjin Kim has to work hard to overcome being overly serious regarding the spiritual side of life, especially if her religious upbringing emphasized guilt and retribution. Reorienting herself in the direction of spiritual optimism will do much to lift the cloud of worry that settles over Yunjin occasionally.
Because she lacks self-confidence, Yunjin Kim has the feeling that her luck has abandoned her. She is inclined to sit and wait for the right opportunities to come along, place too much emphasis on wishful thinking, and then get disappointed when nothing happens.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Yunjin Kim instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Yunjin Kim needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
It is easy for Yunjin Kim to become distracted from her path by the multitude of interesting choices, possibilities, and options available to her. Yunjin Kim needs to develop single mindedness and focus. Until Yunjin directs her attention to some of the big questions, such as "What is my life's purpose?" "What is really important to me and essential to my happiness?", she is apt to dabble, scatter her energies in many directions and engage in activities which are entertaining but ultimately neither fruitful nor enriching.
Having an overall vision for her life and aligning her daily activities so that they support rather than detract from Kim's larger purpose in life, is a significant step toward her personal development.
It is deep within herself, as Yunjin Kim faces her own demons, fears, and struggles - those aspects of life that are not easily or readily shared, those parts of her life that Yunjin Kim keeps hidden from public view where she is most likely to wrestle with these issues.
The qualities described above can also be beneficially channeled into some sort of charitable work, altruistic service or ministering to people in need.
The specific habits which are likely to hold Yunjin Kim back, or which she is prone to overdo, especially during stressful periods, include:
Yunjin Kim's rigid self-control overly restricts her ability to freely express herself or explore possibilities. She is excessively concerned with work, duty and security. She tends to be fearful, judgmental towards herself or others, and can feel alone and cut off from sources of nourishment outside herself. Yunjin Kim should try to learn to relax and recognize that not everything is Kim's responsibility.
The following are specific activities that will support Yunjin Kim in her growth. These may or may not feel natural to Kim, and she may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to her path to wholeness.
She needs to give and receive affection, love and pleasure (primarily with the qualities described previously). Yunjin Kim has to learn to respond to, appreciate and create beauty, art, harmonious surroundings and relationships. She needs to be aware of aesthetics and to do things in a gracious, pleasing manner. Yunjin Kim has to start enjoying life, nurturing friendships and cultivating her ability to love and to receive love.
Yunjin Kim has a strong desire to take part in social functions and entertainment and cultivate an active exchange of thoughts with others. Yunjin also appreciates associations and has the ability to carry enterprises to a successful conclusion through teamwork.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Cancer
Saturn in 6th house
Jupiter Quincunx Saturn
Saturn Square Pluto
Saturn Quincunx Neptune
Saturn Opposition Jupiter/Neptune
N. Node in Sagittarius
N. Node in 12th house
N. Node Opposition Saturn
N. Node Conjunct Venus
N. Node Conjunct Mercury/Jupiter