challenges and difficulties
Hollander doubts her own intelligence and mental capacities, and she may work very hard at studies in order to compensate for this. Xaviera is often overly serious and disinterested in light or superficial conversation. Spontaneous communication, social give-and-take, and making small talk are likely to be difficult for her.
Xaviera Hollander has a mature, disciplined, serious attitude toward life which colors everything she does. Caution and realism are her virtues though Xaviera limits herself at times by being too careful, shy, or fearful, and not believing in herself enough or being assertive when necessary. Others find Xaviera Hollander difficult to get to know intimately, as Hollander tends to distance herself from them or to put forth a rather stern, "adult" face to the world.
Quite reserved and somewhat inhibited in her relationships with others, Xaviera Hollander may feel that she is better off by herself. Xaviera feels that she does not fit in very well with people and she finds team-work in groups or associations difficult to achieve.
Xaviera Hollander tends to be somewhat insecure and uncertain about her direction of life. Frequently plagued by doubt and fear, she is inclined to worry a lot. Because Hollander lacks the confidence to fight back, she may allow herself to become the victim of other people.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Xaviera Hollander instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that she is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for her. The direction Xaviera Hollander needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
Xaviera Hollander's path lies in her development as an individual, the discovery of her own strengths and joys, the capacity to express her uniqueness and to stand out in a crowd. This involves becoming a leader, even though Hollander's instinct is actually to be "one of the Indians" rather than the "chief". When under stress Xaviera Hollander is apt to seek safety in numbers, to go along with the group. Also, she may believe that striving to do her personal best and to excel is wrong or selfish, but Xaviera should let go of this notion. Finding her own center and doing what gives her delight and energy is the most worthwhile contribution Xaviera Hollander can offer the world at large.
It is in her way of thinking, processing information and communicating that Xaviera Hollander is most likely to wrestle with these issues. In Hollander's relationships with neighbors, colleagues, and acquaintances, she needs to try to bring out the qualities described above.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Gemini
Saturn in 1st house
Saturn Conjunct Mars/N. Node
Saturn Opposition Neptune/MC
N. Node in Leo
N. Node in 3rd house