Suzanne Cloutier seems much more objective, unemotional and matter-of-fact than she really is. Despite her fussiness and perfectionism (described in the previous chapter), she is actually very caring and loving. Suzanne Cloutier needs to make sure to openly express her feelings because otherwise, others do not realize how much she cares about them.
Suzanne has powerful emotional attachments to the past, her family, her childhood, places she associates with safety and security, and her beginnings. It is very important to Cloutier to maintain a connection with her roots and heritage and keep family bonds strong. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, Cloutier tends to cling to whatever is dear to her - be it a person, a familiar place, or a cherished possession.
She is sympathetic, nurturing, supportive and very sensitive to the emotional needs of other people. Suzanne likes to be needed and to care for others, and she often worries about the people she loves. Suzanne Cloutier has a very strong need for a sense of belonging and acceptance, and much of her life centers on her home. She is more concerned about people and their feelings than with power, achievement, or position in society. Kindness, consideration and tenderness are more meaningful to Suzanne Cloutier than any sort of honor the world can bestow.
She is primarily emotional and her views are often dominated by her feelings and her own personal, subjective experiences, rather than reason, logic or abstract principles. It is difficult for her to judge situations fairly and objectively because her personal sympathies and loyalties usually factor in. Suzanne Cloutier takes things very personally and sometimes builds a wall around herself to shield herself from pain and rejection. Suzanne Cloutier feels rather shy and vulnerable at heart. She also tends to be moody and experiences frequent mood swings. Suzanne Cloutier needs to have a place and time in her life to withdraw, introspect, dream and replenish herself; otherwise Suzanne Cloutier becomes cranky and unhappy with those around her.
Suzanne Cloutier functions in an instinctive, irrational manner and likes to immerse herself in creative activities where she can express her feelings, imagination and instincts. Cloutier often loves to cook, since it can be both creative and a way to nurture and nourish others. Suzanne Cloutier also has a great affinity for music, because it evokes and communicates feelings that may be difficult or impossible to put into words.
Her compassion, sensitivity, and imagination are Cloutier's strong points. Her faults include an inability to let go of the past and move forward, clannishness and prejudice, and a tendency for self-pity when facing hardship.
Her career, reputation and public image are very important to Cloutier. Suzanne Cloutier has a strong desire to be influential or make her mark on the world. She is not satisfied with the personal sphere alone; her ambitions include making a major contribution and receiving broad recognition for her unique effort and gifts. Suzanne Cloutier may undervalue the personal or inner facet of life.
She is often plagued by feelings of personal inadequacy, inhibitions and self-doubt. Suzanne Cloutier has a cautious, realistic attitude toward life and is highly responsible and disciplined with regard to her obligations and duties. Suzanne Cloutier tends to work and struggle more than necessary and to take herself too seriously.
Although she takes herself and her responsibilities seriously, there is also a part of Suzanne Cloutier that rebels against rules and restrictions and the need to contend with outside authority. Cloutier can feel torn between conforming to the rules or fulfilling her obligations, and breaking free of them. Her wilder side will now be described.
The unusual and unorthodox appeal to Cloutier, and she does not allow tradition, convention or other people's expectations to dictate how she is going to live her life. Suzanne Cloutier craves freedom, adventure, excitement and discovery, and is not afraid of change. Suzanne Cloutier possesses inventive and creative genius.
Inwardly she is zealous and fanatical, though she may hide her personal desires and intentions, as well as the intensity of her feelings. She is driven by a deep inner sense of destiny and mission and an almost compulsive desire for personal recognition. Suzanne is infatuated with power, incredibly willful and stubbornly fixated on achieving greatness or being someone Special. Suzanne Cloutier tends to worship heroes who have powerful personal magnetism and charisma, and she often seeks to emulate them. Suzanne has potential for tremendous good or tremendous evil.
Her vitality is very strong and she is likely to be a workaholic. If Suzanne Cloutier is not careful, she may work so hard that she becomes exhausted, leaving herself open to physical breakdown. Suzanne Cloutier also has a strong drive to win and to dominate others.
It could be hard for Suzanne Cloutier to face up to her mistakes because of her insecurity and self-doubt. Her early years may have been undermined by poor relationships with one or both of her parents who may have been ill, weak or alcoholic.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Ascendant in Virgo and Sun in Cancer
Sun in Cancer
Sun in 10th house
Sun Square Saturn
Sun aspects Saturn and Uranus
Sun Trine Uranus
Sun Conjunct Pluto
Sun Conjunct Mars/Pluto
Sun Conjunct Neptune/MC