challenges and difficulties
He is very self-conscious and has a great need for ego-affirmation and praise. Expressing himself freely and openly is not easy for Tillman. Pat Tillman tends to work hard at playing and "having fun", rather than being light-hearted and spontaneous. Developing self-love and self-acceptance regardless of his "performance" is an important task for Pat.
Pat may be plagued by fear of the unknown, of change, and/or of death. He strongly resists changes and transitions rather than greeting them with curiosity or a spirit of adventure, which makes them much harder for him.
On another level entirely, Pat Tillman is very careful about joining forces, and especially his material resources, with others. Tillman wants to keep his own and other people's property and assets very distinct.
Pat Tillman has a tendency to be overly critical of himself. He may be plagued by feelings of guilt about certain past events, leading to further self-doubt. Pat must learn to handle his frustration, depression and discontent and try to overcome his lack of self-confidence.
Pat Tillman has a desire to break away from tradition and to free himself from restrictive conditions. Somewhat inflexible and rigid, he may suddenly become inhibited before he sets out on his goals, which could be to Tillman's detriment.
Because he is somewhat inhibited when initiating relationships with others, Pat Tillman may prefer to be by himself. Pat may feel that he does not fit in very well with others and as a result, may have difficulties with team-work.
Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which Pat Tillman instinctively and habitually reverts to when under stress - a mostly subconscious process that he is apt to over indulge in because it is so familiar and hence easy for him. The direction Pat Tillman needs to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described.
He is capable of withstanding outside influences and remaining constant and steady on his path, but when under stress Pat Tillman becomes downright obstinate and implacable, resisting any change no matter how necessary or desirable the change may be. Tenaciously trying to preserve the status quo and hold on to what he has, he is apt to ignore the subtle signals he receives about needing to do something differently, which often leads to a crisis.
Pat Tillman needs to learn the limits of his ability to control life, and to accept and even embrace change and loss of the familiar, in order to allow for new life and growth. "Letting go" is a major life lesson for him. Tillman also needs to develop a balanced attitude toward his appetites and desires, as Pat Tillman tends to overindulge and/or deny himself excessively.
It is in his public life and career that Pat Tillman is most likely to wrestle with these issues. The latter will impact Tillman's reputation and standing in his community or professional circle, as well as how Pat Tillman achieves his important life goals and aspirations.
The following are specific activities that will support Pat Tillman in his growth. These may or may not feel natural to Tillman, and he may initially resist or feel awkward about them, but they are crucial to his path to wholeness.
Pat Tillman should be willing to become more of a free thinker, to experiment and change, to loosen his ties to tradition and the known and to allow for new developments. He needs to practice getting involved in an area involving new techniques, rapid changes and innovation. Pat can be part of the avant-garde promoting such changes - be it in science, music or social relationships. Pat Tillman has to be willing to be different and perhaps to be considered eccentric or odd.
Astrological factors in this Astro Profile section:
Saturn in Leo
Saturn in 8th house
Saturn Opposition Moon/Mars
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/Uranus
Saturn Conjunct Jupiter/N. Node
N. Node in Scorpio
N. Node in 10th house
N. Node Conjunct Uranus